again,nothing much in this post. if you dont want to read, dont.
(gambar sekadar hiasan) credit
well, this time i'm talking about myself (which is sooo unsual). but i want to.
first, have you experience failure?? (yes, i'm going to talk about fail AGAIN) sorry about that. but it is so important. because thats why there is a book entittled "dare to fail". teehee.
as a matter of fact. it is depends on how people see things. some people see it as positive stuff. n some people see it as the-end-of-the-world.hurm. n i see it in both way. hahah.
to tell the truth. i have gone through different types of failure. i failed in my english n history paper, but i got excellent for my add maths n maths. i failed in relationship but i still can make some girlfriends. i failed as a senior but i do have adik angkat (hurm, dont misunderstood, this is refer to girls and i'm still straight, kay).i failed in pujuk memujuk but i still care about that person. i failed as a good friend but i still love them. n the list go on. the fact is although you fail in doing one thing there must be something that you are good at. thats the nature of human being.
but NOW (since past 2 weeks) , i cant figure out what i'm good at. i just feel useless. i keep on failing, start from my student life till my personal life. i fail everything!!
i fail in my study, i fail in understand things in lecture, i fail to concentrate, i fail to have courage to change, i fail to talk to my friends my own feelings, i fail to tell the world how depress i am, i fail in telling the truth that i'm NOT OK,i fail in telling my stand, i fail to care my roommate's feeling, i fail in EVERYTHING.
that cause me to feel INFERIOR. cause i cant do anything n make me feel useless. <--- this is my first time feeling like this. n i hate it soooo much. but what can i do??
yes, i feel inferior.
i saw my friends getting first class honor,
i saw my friends talking confidently
i saw my friends begin to stand up again
( i feel happy for them, but why i can't be as good as them??)
but i'm still here. at the same spot. although i have lots of friends, family and seniors to support.
i keep on saying "WAKE UP" n i keep on "CRYING" and being so pity.
but it doesn't change. why?? why it is soooo hard to stand up again?? why??
i keep on praying things will change, something good will happen.but i don't know when.
dear jah,
do have FAITH in Him,
sesungguhnya selepas kesusahan ada kesenangan.
Allah maha Penyayang, DIa tidak akan membebani hambaNYa lebih dprp apa yang dia boleh pikul. please hold on to that belief.
be patient, dear. His helps will come. sooner or later. He knows what is the best for you.
hold on. keep on praying. never lose hope. do have confidence in Allah's help.
mami
T_T
( i'm not asking for symphaty, but i'm asking for prayer)
11 comments:
slm wrt wbt,
to me, one thing that we must learn is to accept our weaknesses. sometimes we tend to be too perfect that we cannot forgive ourselves if we make mistakes.
we aim for perfections but in our mind, we shouldnt make that as an excuse to allow ourselves to be stressed out with our limitations. humans are born with limitations, thats a fact. some might excel in one, another in another.
but what is important, is we learn to make changes to our weaknesses, slowly, bit by bit especially if that weaknesses are ones that are already within our flesh.
the hadith "small but continous deeds are the most loved amal compared to big but not continous" should be our motivation is changing ourselves.
have faith.
p.s when i look at the list of 'weaknesses', it doesnt reflect you? could it be that you are thinking too much about it?
:D
wslm wbt.
thanks muhammad.
hurm, you may be right.
jah terlalu nk perfect kot. n i think too much. plus, my bad. nk kesenangan/kemenangan yg segera. i'm being impatient. T_T
too many people try to motivate me. but again it is back to myself.
huhuu.well, alhamdulillah i have so many ppl around me who care about me. n of course my supportive family.
thank you so much.
*learn to accept*
dear family and friends,
thank you soo much for being there when i;m in need. i don't know how to say. but deep inside my heart, i feel so grateful. thanks a million.
May Allah bless you all. :3
just dont give up for there will always be light at the end of the tunnel. you'll make it
@muhammad/ fazli
eerk,sorry. aku ingt tuh abg aku tulis.T_T adei. malu2. @_@ hehe.sabo je la.
nway, thanks a million.
@ leng chai
thanks jugak. n yup. it is true. dont give up.
CAme on Jah! You can do it! Always think positive. Allah will be always be his servants who works had and struggle for success.
:):)
love you sis, no matter whatever happens:) no matter how you view yourself.. you will always be my "little" sister :P
take care and may He, the All Gracious, the All Aware take care of you always..
ps: i have to agree with what muhammad your friend said:)
@amin rox
thanks a lot for the reminder. insyaAllah i will remember that.
@HH
love u too, sis. you will always be my BIG sister. :P
p.s. mum, if u happened to read this, all above are my classmates at kmb n HH is dati. hehe. :P n thanks a lot for the weekend, mum, i feel much better.
pss i'm totally confident that u read this. :)
allow me to correct the flaw in ur equation.
no study + study = fail + no fail
now, it is erroneous because u cant add up the duality of a phenomenon.
u cant do something and NOT do it simultaneously. for example,
no life + life = ?
it can either have no life or have a life. they cant happen in concurrent.
thus, summing up a premise and its negation is always zero. it cant be factorized.
no study + study = 0
fail + no fail = 0
no study + study = fail + no fail
0 = 0
this is just logic 101 compadre. hope u can catch my drift. :P
@nothing substantial
yup, i get what u are trying to say,
the equation is totally ridiculous. i don't think mathematicians will agree with me. lol.
it does not make sense.
i should explain the picture.- it is a reserve psychology.people are too depressed until they come out with this equation. did i told u, the equation is not mine?? gee, i should put the link. again, sorry about that. i will edit it immediately.
hope people get the point.
ps thanks for reading!
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