philosophy of life

assalamualaikum wbt,

well, i'm back to reality. the truth about the world, about life. some people say life is like a wheel, sometimes you are at the top, sometimes you are at the bottom. n there is always upside down in this life. well, i do agree. in fact i believe in that. but i fail to understand that when i was at the top.

when something bad happen to you, you always said there must be a reason, it happens for a reason, etc2. but when something good happen to you, have you think the reason behind it?

some people said it is easier to be patience than being grateful of what happen. but i would said, both are difficult to do without faith. if you have faith in Him, everything will be easy. yup, easy to say, easy to write, but difficult to apply.

have you ever experienced constantly got bad news? or something bad that will turn your life upside down? or  something that become your turning point in your life? some people believe there must be a turning point in your life either to become a good or bad person.

as for me, i dont believe that. my everyday life is my turning point. everyday you have to choose what to do. if you choose want to live in the past, then thats it. but if you choose want to do good deeds, than you can become a good person. if you choose today you want to overcome your sadness, than it makes you stronger. so, i would say, everyday is your life turning point. but maybe some people experience something bigger that makes he/she turns 360 degree. but it still depends on what you do everyday.

my life journey is complicated. and it is getting more complicated. the more i think about my future, the more i'm unsure what my future will be, will i be alive till 30s? will i able to get married? will i be a doctor? n etc2.........those questions are remain in my head till those become reality.

new life. is there such thing as new life? yup, i believe that. new environment, new people, new everything. thats new life. but the truth is the definition of new life is based on you. if you define new life as changing your habits, etc2, than that is new life for you. as for me, new life means everything new [environment, mental and spiritual]. not physical. the physical remains the same. but what i think, what i do, may change. and of course norm as human being want something good. change to be a better person.

and it is not easy to change especially when people around you is not as supportive as your family. yup, i do believe environment and people around play an important role in life. some people disagree with this and said that they can change not because of surrounding as long as they have a strong will. well, my strong stand is based on the reason why you change. and extra credit to the people around you. it is not that you change because of people. but you change because you want to be a better person, and people around you help you to achieve what you want to be. those are 2 different things. change because of a person or change with the help of a person.

lastly, good bye old life, welcome new life, humaira. n i dont know whether to look forward to the new life or not. life is complicated. only He knows what is the best for me. "O Allah, please show me the right path in making this decision and please make me stronger. only You knows what is the best for me"