The road not taken

"Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth; 

Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim
Because it was grassy and wanted wear,
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day! 
Yet knowing how way leads on to way
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I,
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference."
-Robert Frost

I walked down the street. Towards the beach. With headphone on my ears, At full volume.
Walking. walking and walking. Alone.

My mind goes wild.
Thinking how grateful I am.
I have everything I NEED. Indeed not everything I want.
But thats enough for me to survive.
On this road, the road not taken.

My mum once said, " why you choose medicine? You looks passionate on tech more"

But I choose the road not taken.
I did well in Physics, then Biology in secondary school.
I did well in Maths, then Biology or Chemistry in college.
But I still choose this path.
The road not taken.
as Robert Frost said, I doubted if I should ever come back.

If you ask me, Do I ever feel scared?
I'm lying if I said no.
I'm scare.
Scare of losing everything.
Scare of disappoint people I love.
Scare of debt.

And I'm wonder, how the Eygptians, the Palestenians, the Syrians face everyday?
They losing everything, everyday.
Shelters, family, money, food
And no one knows what will happen on the next day.

While sitting on a rock at the seaside,an Irish men came and smile at me.
" It is a nice weather, yah. Appreciate each moment you have in life, lad""
  Yup.
Whichever road you take, appreciate the scenery, the moment.
Because you never know when will you ever come back.
Thank you Allah for giving me the chance, the opportunity.

I keep asking myself.
"Where goes wrong?" "What are the things that I missed?"
Later, I realized. Instead of asking that, why not this
"Where should I start afresh?" "What are the things I need for the future?"
I look on my wall. 
A big poster - 
"NEVER LOOK AT WHAT YOU'VE LOST, ALWAYS LOOK AT WHAT YOU'VE GOT"
*slap* *wake up girl*

"Let me tell you something you already know. The world ain’t all sunshine and rainbows. It’s a very mean and nasty place, and I don’t care how tough you are, it will beat you to your knees and keep you there permanently if you let it. You, me, or nobody is gonna hit as hard as life. But it ain’t about how hard you hit. It’s about how hard you can get hit and keep moving forward; how much you can take and keep moving forward. That’s how winning is done! Now, if you know what you’re worth, then go out and get what you’re worth. But you gotta be willing to take the hits, and not pointing fingers saying you ain’t where you wanna be because of him, or her, or anybody. Cowards do that and that ain’t you. You’re better than that!" - Rocky Balboa

 How much you can take, how much you can get hit and keep moving forward.
Keep moving forward.

Giant's Causeway. Long time ago. Searching for peace and serenity.

He is the Most Merciful of the Merciful. Believe in Him.


Salthill.
21 Syawal 1434H