Monday, June 6, 2016

Never ending life lessons

Sometimes we take things for granted and we thought no one care. But the truth is different people have different way of showing.

During those tough times, I have saw, met, talked, different types of people. I've heard a quote saying you'll know your true friends during your tough times. I'm kinda partially agree, but it is not 100% true.

I learn about it in a hard way and I learn my lesson. Let me tell you.

One of many other stories.

People say girls gossip more. But the truth is both gender gossip. No gender superior to another. So, I know this guy. Well, I rarely talked to guy (or even befriend). Not because I am a feminist Lols. Just because I don't have a reason to talk to them. (boleh terima? Lols)

Anyway, back to this guy. Let's give him a name, Mr X. He is famous in our class as a very friendly guy. And he is belong to a group of man. Hurm, how to put it, a kecoh group? Lols. So, happened to be we were in a same group in faraway (read:peripheral) land for our last rotation. It was near to exam and we were only 5 of us Malaysians and 2 Irish. Hence, we have to work together. I have no problem with him. No at all. But he knows too much about my personal life (which I have no idea where he got it. Never talk to him before). I'm kinda don't like it. But I don't want to make a scene and I don't have any grudge on him. Not at all. Why? Hurm, because I know he is Kecoh group member. Lols. Anyway, I believe the more we discuss about it, the more information leak. So, I decided to keep quiet and only talk about studies or relevant stuffs etc.

Ok. So, when this 'thing' happened, a friend told me, he knew. Well, he is a member of Kecoh group. No surprised. No at all. But this time, I did feel a little bit hurm annoying?. Not just him but anyone else. People talked behind your back and do nothing. Just talked. It hurts. It really hurts. I don't mind people know I have go through this and that, but if you know he or she have go through calamity, as a friend or at least as a brother or sister in Islam, offer your help. Be it as beautiful words, prayers, physical help. Anything! There are so many things you can do. (reminder to myself. But unfortunately, I'm always the last person to know about this stuffs that happens to other people. Hurm. Asyik duduk dalam gua. Memang la. Lols)

So, I thought he was like that until one day, he texted me.

He asked me how am I, how I cope with, and say he will pray for me.

I asked him why he do that, ada orang bagi ceramah ke. Lols. But he said no, he really want to call/text me, but he is just waiting for a right time. He told my friend, he knows how hard I study, how hard I was, based from the 3 weeks rotation, and he was afraid I'm not okay, and couldn't take the news. That's why he wants to wait (until after 3 weeks to text me)

And I'm touched.
I'm wrong. 

This is just one of many other stories, with different people, especially those are dear to me. Family and best friends. Mum told me, "We are caring a lot, in our own ways" 

Indeed, mum, indeed.

Hence, for this Ramadhan resolution: Purify the heart, more husnuzon, ask guidance from Allah. (minta sungguh-sungguh)
Salam Ramadhan, everyone! May Allah accepts our deeds this year and may this year much much much more better than last year. Amin!

29 Syaaban 1437H

Monday, May 30, 2016

Do good because He loves those who do good

Beautiful advice by the great scholar Imam Ibn al-Qayyim (rahimahullah):

“A friend can not share your struggles, 

and a loved one cannot physically take away your pain, 

and a close one will not stay up the night on your behalf. 

So look after yourself, protect yourself, nurture yourself and don’t give life’s events more than what they are really worth. 

Know for certain that when you break no one will heal you except you, and when you are defeated no one will give you victory except your determination. 

Your ability to stand up again and carry on is your responsibility. 

Do not look for your self worth in the eyes of people; look for your worth from within your conscious. 

If your conscious is at peace then you will ascend high and if you truly know yourself then what is said about you won’t harm you.

Do not carry the worries of this life because this is for Allah. 

And do not carry the worries of sustenance because it is from Allah. 

And do not carry the anxiety for the future because it is in the Hands of Allah.

Carry one thing: How to Please Allah. 

Because if you please Him, He Pleases you, fulfils you and enriches you.

Do not weep from a life that made your heart weep. Just say, "Oh Allah compensate me with good in this life and the hereafter.”

Sadness departs with a Sajdah. 

Happiness comes with a sincere Du'a. 

Allah does not forget the good you do. Nor does he forget the good you did to others and the pain you relieved them from. 

Nor will He forget the eye which was about to cry but you made it laugh.

Live your life with this principle: Be good even if you don’t receive good, not because of other’s sake but because Allah loves those who do good.“ 

Ibn Qayyim



22 Syaban 1437

Hang it there.

8 days to Ramadhan. Allahu.  



21 Syaban 1437H 

Saturday, May 21, 2016

Stop having expectations

Lessons to be learnt.

Expectations hurt when it does not meet.

Be it to yourself or to other people.

You expect people to react the way that you want.

You expect people to have the same feeling as yours.

You expect people to do things.

You expect people to say things that you want to hear.

You expect you can achieve that and that.

You expect you can do that and that.

You expect things going on as plan.

You expect.....

You expect....

You expect.....

Too many expectations from a person.

Too many expectations from myself.

Learn to accept the way they are.

Learn to accept the fate.

Learn to accept your ability.

Learn to let go.

Learn to move on.

Learn to understand.

Learn to learn about other people.

A long talk with my sister and she told me this, don't expect he will change to the person you want. You need to accept the way he is. You need to be patience. Never stop loving, never stop knowing him after married.

(oh well, applicable to everything, everyone we know and it is a two way thing. Including your best friends, your friends, studygroup mate, family etc)

Adiós, feelings. Penat ar layan perasaan. Ok. Just joking :P

Adiós, expectations!

Bon voyage, classmates.

Bon voyage, groupmates.

All the best in your future undertaking.

Ola, Prof Kerin, books, MAU, Dr Gallagher, Dr Goulding, Dr Finn,

Class of 2016, you guys will be missed.


16 Syaaban 1437H

Sri Damansara

The day I decide to hide the tears. Ok, just joking #swiss16
I'm lucky to have you in my life. Thank you for lending your shoulders and ears and be there during the tough time.  #whenweseeprof

last day of exam. #beforeeverythngchange

with a very positive classmate and a clingy one. lols. JK. #lastdayofexam
rumah kurning yang suka hijack kak yanti :P #lastdayoftutorial 

bride-to-be. lagi advance dari kakak ni. hoho. #adikakaktalk

last rotation #teamcastlebar

a prompt visit my kesayangan #whenheisnotwell #edin16

break time. team #lectureblock
The dream team - big brother, little brother, little sister #awesometeam

international dinner #team90s

 with Dean School of Medicine #can'tsaygoodbyeyettothisman. hoho


It is not the end. It is just the beginning. Hang it there.
Stop having expectations and move on.

Whatever happens, Allah knows, Allah is always there.

Berhenti berharap pada manusia. Kerana tuhan ada.