Tuesday, December 16, 2014

keep calm and lets study!

How to keep calm? 

Love Allah first. Believe He is The Most Powerful and The Most Adil, tak zalim pada hambaNya. So, how to love HIM? Here the tips!


Ibn Qayyim (May Allah have mercy on him) said that there are ten things that bring about the love of Allah.

1) Recitation of the Qur’ an with reflection and with understanding of its meanings.

2) Seeking closeness to Allah by performing voluntary deeds after having performed obligatory ones, for that leads one to the highest levels of love.

3) Remembering Allah during every situation – with one’s time, heart and deeds, one’s share of that love is to the degree of one’s share in that remembrance.

4) Preferring what He loves to what you love when your desires are strong.

5) Allowing your heart to reflect on His Names and Attributes.

6) Reflecting on His many favors and blessings, both the apparent ones and hidden ones, for that leads to His love.

7) Having your heart softened as it is worshipping Allah.

8) Being alone with Him in worship when He descends during the last third of the night. And this means to invoke Him, to recite His Speech, to stand with all sincerity and with good manners and with good submission, and then to end that with repentance and with seeking His forgiveness.

9) Sitting with those who are truthful in their love of Allah.

10) Staying away from all that creates barriers between the heart and Allah.

We ask Allah to grant us His love, and the love of those who love Him and the love of those actions which bring us close to him:) Source

"Verily, in the remembrance of Allah do hearts find rest." (Qur'an 13:28)
"Therefore remember Me and I will remember you…"(Qur'an 2:152)

Bila nak exam, panic attack mula menerjah. Almost 5 days I am in a state of misery. Haru sangat. Too much things to read. Can you imagine there are 4 BIG modules and they all will be tested in ONE DAY! how crazy is that? Now, you know how misery I am. And here I am writing a blog post -_-' *sigh* Just to keep my sanity and remind me that all is well, all is well. My brother told me, just keep calm, baru belajar senang masuk. So, how to keep calm? Papa kata Remember Allah. Remember Allah. Remember Allah. Dah tuh, apa lagi, pergi la solat zohor. -_-' *Personality Disorder much*


Apt 15
24 Safar 1436H

Friday, December 12, 2014

Developmental milestone

Assalamualaikum and hi!

This knowledge is not just for a medical student ok. Buat kawan-kawan yang dah/bakal dapat anak. Selamat menjadi ibu bapa yang soleh/ah! Here are things you need to know about your child. 

Why it is important? 

Things can happen. Learning disabilities are the worst thing that we want in our life. It is not about KIASU or exam oriented what-so-ever but it is about prevention. Learning disabilities give a greater burden to mental and physical ill health and it associated with reduced quality of life and community adaptation. It gives a significant impairment in adaptive or social functioning. Kesimpulannya, si anak tak boleh menjalani kehidupan macam kanak-kanak lain. *pehe dop?* 

KENAPA? lots of reason why. Trisomy 21, Cerebral Palsy, Alcohol, Family problem, etc

Anyway, lets learn a normal milestone ok? later I will write on abnormal one. or you can ask Dr Google :P Oh, yes, I don't want to make you panic. If lets say IF your child is not up to the milestone. DON'T WORRY. This milestone is base on population. It means average/centile of the population has that milestone. Some might not achieve the skills YET but it doesn't mean your child has a learning disability.  However, for each of this social functioning has a age limit and your child shouldn't be behind 25th centile (the minority of the population) IF that happens, seek a pediatrician.  

Welcome to motherhood! *bajet :P*

Picture credit to a friend in another county. Thank you. :')

Extra, It is not relate with milestone. Just a survivor tip :)Source

p/s Exam less than a week. Please pray for me, please! *GAD!. ok. wrong diagnosed. there is a stimulus. EXAMS. argggghhhh!

Apt 15
19 Safar 1436H

Wednesday, December 10, 2014


"When it happened, I was thinking of booking my flight tickets to be with you"

"I don't want my children to be hurt"

"I wish I can replace you and go through the difficulty for you"

"You were so young at that time. I am proud of you"


Another small hurdle.

For you, Mami and Papa.

For teaching us that falling only makes us stronger. For giving us the encouragement to try again. Thank you.


Dear myself, get the intention right and be focus.

Biar air mata itu mengalir sambil buku dibelek.
Jangan air mata itu mengalir bila keputusan kelak. 

Supaya kelak kamu akan berkata, Alhamdulillah, you did it.

17 Safar 1436H

Friday, December 5, 2014

Own will

"There are tonnes to do if you want to, and none if you can't be bothered to" -Hlovate.

It is all about making decision.
Don't afraid making mistake and learn from it. Because we have a limited knowledge of what is the best for us. *unless if you have grandiose delusions :P just joking. Teheee* 

My advice: 

Have faith in Allah, if not you will be having DEPENDENT problem.

But dont forget making friends, you will be easily ANXIOUS if you dont have one.

Oh wait, not too much social contact. It will turn you to HISTORIONIC.

Don't think too much. You are not ANANKASTIC.*hope so*

Be nice and responsible. Not like those ANTISOCIAL people. ;) 

Trust others and stop being PARONOID.

Be humble and balance your life. Go out from your SCHIZOID zone and keep your EMOTION stable. 

Thats all my psych notes. Teehee.

All with capital words are types of personality disorder. :)

The choice is yours. Bersederhana. But not in making good deeds. Islam teach us to be moderate but urge us to do good to others, fastabiqul khairat. Berlumba-lumba membuat kebaikan. 

Amar maaruf, nahi mungkar.

Do good, stop doing evils.


12 Safar 1436H
Apt 15

Thursday, December 4, 2014

Hati dan akal

Kadang kala, pengorbanan itu perlu.

Ku lihat diluar tingkap. Cantiknya cuaca hari ini! Hati melonjak gembira seolah-olah memaksa diri keluar. 
Keluar mencari ketenangan. Kononnya.

Namun, apabila akal mula berbicara, semua anggota seolah-olah mengerti. Tunduk bermuhasabah. Kerana tahu mana yang lebih penting. Kerana tahu masih banyak yang perlu dibaca. Kerana tahu susah sekarang untuk masa depan. Kerana tahu janji Dia dalam kalam itu benar, akan tiba kesenangan itu.

Oleh itu, wahai hati, bersabarlah! Jangan pernah berputus asa dengan janji Dia. 

Just a little bit more. 

And here i am, stuck in this beautiful building with bundle of notes. Semoga ia menjadi bekalan akhirat kelak. Dan semoga ilmu ini bermanfaat untuk ummat. Amin!

11 Safar 1436H

Friday, November 28, 2014

oh kids and bedtime

assalamualaikum and hi!

currently reading books about kids a.k.a pediatrics. *lam wow lam*  and I found something interesting.

I have lots lots and lots of nieces and nephews. Alhamdulillah. All praise to Allah for this ni'mah.
and I have experienced taking care of them. Soooo, few common challenges that I have faced/observed/etc are:

1. Difficulty in settling to sleep at bedtime.

some of my nieces and nephews go to sleep quite late. Especially when this Che Su tak mo tido lagi. lols. Ok having said that, I used to asked them at what time they usually sleep. If weekend, they are all sleep late because no school on the next day. And it changes during weekdays. Fair enough for the big ones but not the young ones especially if they are sleeping with the parents.

Hence, I am thinking about the future. I need the sleep for the energy. hurmmmm. *sleepy head much. hahahah*

Anyway, back to the story. First, you need to figure out why they are not settling at night. Here are some reasons:

  • too much sleep in the late afternoon
  • displaced sleep/wake cycle - not waking child in morning because did not settle until late on the previous night
  • separation anxiety
  • overstimulated or overwrought in the evening 
  • kept awake by siblings or noisy neighbors or TV in the bedroom
  • erratic parental practices: no bedtime or routing to cue child into sleep readiness, sudden removal from play to go to bed without prior warning to wind down
  • use of bedroom as punishment
  • dislike of darkness and silence- night light and playing story tapes can be helpfl
  • some chronic physical conditions may be associated with sleep problems e.h painful crisis in sickle cell disease 

and these are what recommended:

  • creating a bedtime routine which cues the child to what is required
  • telling the child to lie quietly in bed until he/she falls asleep, recognizing that children cannot fall asleep to order

and these are what my parents did to me. as far as I remember. hehe

  • Mami is a mom to us and a warden as well. Hehe. At 10 pm every night, she will make sure everyone go to bed after finish homework/study. Every night, we sat at the study table together and everyone was studying including my mom. and exactly at 10 pm, we prepared our stuffs to go to school for the next day and ready to go to bed. Thats was happened everyday! *hidup berjemaah beb, we did everything together, bila masuk university, those 20 years training had changed. why? I don't know. Need to go back on track*. Basically, we have routine and honestly, I am enjoy that. *perfect melancholic much*
  • we don't watch TV at night - so, it was very quiet at night. Except later on when a shopping complex was build next to our house. (we lived in a shophouse and it was a cowboy town back then. not anymore. Sound pollution started when I was 10 I think.).
  • sometimes, after Papa came back from work and both my parents were ready to go to sleep, I would go to their room and tell a story based on what I drew. Well, it was kinda bedtime story for all of us, but I were the story teller. lols. *see, how much I am enjoy talking. Thats explain my excessive talking behavior. hahahah* - I am trying to reduce okkk.
  • night light - I have this until now, not really here. But back home in Malaysia. My mum will make sure all rooms have night light. I don't know the reason. but thats mum. She will make sure all rooms have night light or table lamp. I rarely use it because some said it is not good for your sleep hygiene. To what extend it is true, I don't know. I have no problem having that in my room. Mom's love <3 li="">

Fun fact: talking about story tapes. For each one of us who have successfully read a whole story book, our parents will tape it. *we don't have any video cam whatsoever. voice recorder was the best* It was the best moment ever! We would keep on playing that and listening over and over again our own voice. It was kinda a booster to read more more and more. awwww. I am wonder where are those tapes? hurmm in our old house maybe.  

Enough for tonight. I would like to write on toddler disobedience and tantrum but not today. Later insyAllah. 

Resource for above facts: Illustrated Textbook of Paediatrics by Tom Lissauer and Graham Clayden.

back to books!
Exam less than 4 weeks! *panic attack*

p/s few more topics I want to write - CBT and Health promotion. Doakan diberi keberkatan masa. Amin! I think I have those flight of ideas. *maniac much. lols*

may Allah bless!

Apt 15
6 Safar 1436H

New tag --> Tarbiyatul aulad! >.<

Tuesday, November 25, 2014


"O you who have believed, what is [the matter] with you that, when you are told to go forth in the cause of Allah , you adhere heavily to the earth? Are you satisfied with the life of this world rather than the Hereafter? But what is the enjoyment of worldly life compared to the Hereafter except a [very] little." (9:38)

Exam is coming. Panic attack. bibo bibo. lols.

May Allah ease!

p.s no longer active in Instagram and Facebook. I just need a space for myself. Not for the whole world to see. Just to keep my sanity. And if you ask me, how about this blog? this blog is a gift for you. Just a reminder for me and you for the sake of hereafter. Amin!. :)

If you want to know how I am doing? text or call me. Don't stalk me :P *perasan. haha* I am fine. Alhamdulillah. thanks for asking anyway.*bajet ada orang tanya. :P*

1 Safar 1436H
Apt 15

Sunday, November 23, 2014


Berharap pada manusia, 
Manusia tidak mengerti.

Berharap pada manusia,
Manusia itu kompleks.

Berharap pada manusia,
Hati gelisah.

Berharap pada manusia, 
Jiwa merana.


Itu semua nafsu.

Masakan syaitan akan diam tatkala anak Adam berusaha menjadi hamba yang taat.

Akhirnya, kembalillah pada Sang Pencipta.

Dia yang mencipta hati.
Dia yang memegang hati.
Dia yang membolak balikkan hati. 

Andai ditanya, tidakkah gelisah?
Tidakkah sedih?
Tidakkah cemburu?

Dusta andai dijawab tidak.
Kerana aku manusia yang lemah lagi hina.

Apakah daya aku.
Apakah kudrat yang aku ada.
Apakah boleh aku cari jalan keluar?

Kadang kala, aku tertanya. 
Apakah maksud semua ini? 
Aku cuba tapi sering kali tiada jawapan yang aku temui
Atau adakah aku pentingkan diri sendiri? 

Seribu satu persoalan kerana seribu satu diam membisu. 

Sudahkah kamu menemui jawapan?

Kerana aku buntu,

Hanya satu yang aku harapkan.

Allah, tunjukkan aku jalan yang lurus iaitu jalan yang diredhaiNya. 

Mula tertanya-tanya apakah maksud semua ini.

Redefine the purpose of life.

Repost picture. Mohon terasa wahai diri. 

29 Muharram 1436

Monday, November 17, 2014


Assalamualaikum and hi!

Just want to share something common. Sooooo commmooonnn especially for a student. ehehs.

Anyway, lets get back to the business!

My doctor asked me if a patient came with T.A.T.T. what are your differential diagnosis?

And I was like WHAT?! Tatt??

It was my first time know that term. T.A.T.T. = Tired All The Time.

I don't understand why they want a fancy acronym. pfttt. ok. thats it about the name.

So, if you feel tired all the time, there are number of questions you have to ask yourself and if it is YES most of the questions, please be worried.

Biological Factors.

  1. Are you a vegetarian? [Query for anemia]
  2. If yes, did you take any iron supplement?
  3. Are you a female? [Query for heavy bleeding]
  4. If yes, when was your last menstrual period? 
  5. Is it heavier than normal? Or how many pads did you used recently? Or was there any flushing?
  6. Have you gain your weight recently? [Query for hypothyroidism]
  7. Are you cold intolerance?
  8. Do you have any constipation recently?
  9. Do you have increase in thirst? [Query for diabetes]
  10. Do you feel want to go to the toilet more than usual?
  11. Have you loss your weight recently?
  12. Do you feel more hungry lately?
Physiological factors
  1. Did you sleep well last night? [Query for insomnia/depression]
  2. How was your appetite? 
  3. What did you do that you find it enjoyable? 
  4. Did you still do it?
  5. Is there anything bothering you lately?
  6. Do you have any bad thoughts?
  7. Have you ever think of self harm?
  8. If yes, what did you plan to do?
  9. Did you talk about this with your parents?

The common causes of tired all the time are Anaemia, Hypothyroidism and Depression

Don't keep it to yourself if you feel you are tired all the time. Seek help. See doctor. Talk to your friends about this or your family.

If something bothering you, seek help. And don't forget to ask from Allah. 

Easy said then done. But believe me, you are precious. Love yourself. Allah is always there for you. Be strong. If HE has kept you breathing, He has a purpose for you. Value yourself. :)

Royal Botanical Garden, Edinburgh

"Being with others is therapeutic and healing in almost all situations," 
- Carol Landau,
PhD, a clinical professor of psychiatry and medicine at Alpert Medical School at Brown University.

“When I cry or lose or bruise, so long as I am still alive, nothing is ultimate. So long as there is still a tomorrow, a next moment, there is hope, there is change, there is redemption. What is lost, is not lost forever.” 
– Yasmin Mogahed

Raed this eye opening article- Living with Depression and Islam

May Allah ease each one of us! Amin!
May Allah (swt) cure you all of your illnesses, your distresses, your pains and grant you the best of healing. Ameen.

 p/s sebenarnya diri ni rasa macam penat aje. Penat mengade :P Just a piece of advice, how tired you are, put faith in Allah. When Allah brings you to it, He will bring you through it. Amin insyAllah.
So dear heart, tolong bertahan. Trust in Him and him. 

Apt 15
24 Muharam 1436H

Thursday, October 30, 2014

Just be grateful

Assalamualaikum and hi!

Just want to share pictures of the month. A reflection. What have I done and what I have go through. May Allah accepts our deeds. Amin!

To be frank, October was a tough month . But looking at those pictures, I realized that it was not that bad. Allah is being too kind. Lots of wonderful news too. So, just be grateful and never lose hope in Allah!

End of Obs and Gynae rotation! Alhamdulillah :)


And [remember] when your Lord proclaimed, 'If you are grateful, I will surely increase you [in favor]; but if you deny, indeed, My punishment is severe.' " 14;7

"I have attained knowledge through praising Allah and being grateful to Him. Every time I understood and familiarized myself with an issue o fiqh or wisdom, I would say, Alhamdulillah and my knowledge increased thereafter" - Imam Abu Hanifah rahimahullah. :)

"o Allah, I am indeed harsh, therefore make me gentle, I am weak, therefore make me storng, I am miserly therefore make me generous" Umar Al-Khattab

Apt 15
6 Muharram 1436H

Wednesday, October 22, 2014


Assalamualaikum and hi!


O you who have believed, persevere and endure and remain stationed and fear Allah that you may be successful
Just want to share a beautiful reminder :')

Just in time.

Allah loves you, dear

You are the chosen one.

Be grateful.

Apt 15
27 Dzulhijjah 1435H

Friday, September 19, 2014


Abdullah ibn Amr reported: The Messenger of Allah, peace and blessings be upon him, said, “Those who are merciful will be shown mercy by the Merciful. Be merciful to those on the earth and the One above the heavens will have mercy upon you. The womb is derived from the Merciful, so whoever keeps relations with his family then Allah will keep relations with him, and whoever abandons his family then Allah will abandon him.”


Despite love is pain and sacrifice, be merciful. 

Thursday, September 4, 2014


Assalamualaikum and hi!

Seriously, I am tired. This is just my 4th day of new rotation. but I feel soooo exhausted. *camne nak jadi doc ni. huk huk*

Yesterday story

Consultant: Whats your name?
Me : Khadijah
Consultant: ahh Khadijah Ummul Mukminin
Me: :)

Next few hours

Consultant: I want you to find out about this, this and this. And present to me tomorrow
Me; *jaw dropped*
Consultant: well, you are Khadijah Ummul Mukminin right. so, I know you will do it.
Me: *double jaw dropped*


a reminder, dear myself.

It’s the story of one of the great Imams of this Ummah, Imam Ahmad bin Hanbal.

His son, Abdullah, asked his father one day: “Abi when will we ever relax?” His father, one of the greatest revivers of the Sunnah and a role model for all Muslims, looked him in the eye and said: “With the first step we take into Jannah.”

Click to read more: http://productivemuslim.com/abi-when-will-we-ever-relax/#ixzz3CKQiWnX9 

Yosh! berusaha! and tonight I have to oncall. hurm.

*I need a booster*

p/s loss confident yesterday when the tutor asked me a simple question but i can't answer. Another depressing moment is when i loss my voice. i am just too afraid and have low self esteem at the moment. I miss my ortho team, I miss people call me Dr DJ, I miss everything about last summer T_T Wake up, dear! it is a new challenge!

9 Zulkaedah 1435H
Apt 15

Saturday, August 30, 2014

30 days of summer

Assalamualaikum and hi!

Alhamdulillah I am back in track! Back to reality after the long holiday. So..... *title post macam tajuk movie je. :P* anyway, I spend not exactly 30 days, more like 30+4 days laa at home. Quite close whattt. *whatever*

Just a summary of my 30 days at home.

1. Spend the last 7 days of Ramadhan at home

Lesson: Will you see Ramadhan again next year? bring it all out!

2. Spend time with nieces and nephews - camwhoring, selfies, making loom band, play pisang goreng, making goal post, went to the beach and swim like there is no tomorrow *except i don't know how to swim. lols* playing football with the boys, making sandcastle, sleepover in my room with the girls, and more!

Lesson: Children see, children do. Be a good example.

3. Eid celebration - there were 9/10 in the house! First raya and second raya - went down to KB, third raya- as usual, our own open house, met my old primary school friends. It was enjoyable. 

Lesson: Tighten the silaturrahim. It is Rasulullah's teaching.

4. Preparation for my brother's engagement in Ipoh - make hantaran, find the ring etc

Lesson: do good to your mother, heaven lies at your mother's feet

5. Road trip to Ipoh - another family gathering! + pool. 

Lesson: Life is a journey, travel , see and learn

6. went to Kak Huda's wedding - one of my senior that is sooo dear to me, married to the son of Abe Nan's friend. Met lots of people at the wedding, Kak Siti, Kak Faizah, Kak Ika, Afiqah, Wani etc2

Lesson: Do good to others, you will be remembered

7. Then we continue the road trip to KL to attend my cousin's son wedding, the first one on Tok Abah's side. He is just 20 and the bride is 19 y/o. wohooo. * jodoh dah sampai :)*

Lesson: no matter how old are you, when the time comes, you will get married. Be patient. Allah knows best

8. Stay in KL for few days, at Farah's house. A memorable sleepover, skype with Mirah in Langkawi, exchange stories, stay in bed because it was raining and don't feel like to go out. hahah

Lesson: Each one of us have go through challenges. But it is a custom-made. Allah knows you can face it. So, please be strong. 

9. went to KMB after 4 years Huhu, Visit teachers, helping out juniors with BEE, met old classmates - Adam, Bella, Ridhu. It felt so great! the teachers are still remember me, and their words are sooo full of wisdom. :) then, helping the teachers with roti for the graduation day. haha. We have stories behind that.  :D Met Pak cik Suzaili, KMB staff and he remembered my name! *Surprisingly*. then talked to a cleaner who worked in KMB for soo long, an unsung heroin. :) 

Lesson : attitude. no matter how high you study, don't let your ego control you.. Be as humble as possible. Respect your teachers, staffs, even cleaners. We are all same.

Pak cik Suzaili (S), Me (H), Teacher Zarina (Z)
S: bila nak kahwin?
H: tak de jodoh lagi
S; laaa, tak de jodoh lagi?
Z: ye la, kalau dah ada jodoh, mesti dah kahwin :D
H: *nice one, teacher. hehe*
10. Celebrate Mami's birthday. I made satay *family tradition for celebrating birthday* and bought present for her from all of us. Papa being so sweet by buying presents and sembunyi dekat klinik. Lols. and he forgot to bring it home. Haha.

Lesson: Jangan berkira. Give the best to your parents. 

11. Made two non-bake cheesecakes - Oreo cheesecake (the base was biskut raya. hehe) and Fruit Cocktail Cheesecake. My very first cheesecake at home. Alhamdulillah they love it :) *skills unlock!*  (why non bake? because we don't have oven or even microwave at home! for years)

Lesson: Never underestimate your ability. 

12. went to Kak Ba's wedding and Kak Na's sister wedding with Nisa' girls. Seeing them after a year, it was soo great seeing those familiar faces that always remind me of Allah. May Allah bless you all!

Lesson: Always remind others of Allah, not just by words, but by actions.

“Your best friend is the one who when seeing him reminds you of Allah, speaking to him increases you in knowledge, and his actions remind you of the Hereafter.” -Prophet Muhammad

13. Prepare for Jalinan Aidilfitri - making banner, handbill, poster, print out, distribute. Not able to attend, but able to help Alhamdulillah

Lesson: don't afraid to try new things

14. went to Kuliah Fiqh Wanita - at last, manage to join Nisa's program. I am a happy kid. hehe

Lesson: Always find time to learn new knowledge!

15. drive alone to KT for the very first time, went to Kak Iffah's wedding (at Ika's house) with Kak Ain, Sherry and Syaza. Met Sof and Shikin there. It was a wonderful wedding. And then, we went to Masjid Kristal, sharing session. My very first time at Masjid Kristal and State Library. Lols, Nama je duduk Terengganu, tapi tak pernah pergi -_-' Almost everything is my first time.

Lesson: There is no harm in trying. Don't regret if it doesn't turn out the way that you want. It is better than not trying at all.

16. Stay at Kak Aana's house, a house at the sea shore. Manage to share stories with her, learn about future career, family planning, experiences, playing with nieces, the 3 heroes :) Alhamdulillah a night well spent.

Lesson: Learn from others' experiences to become better, seek advice about life, listen to their wisdom

a pondok tempat lepak-lepak, belakang rumah. see the sea? :)

 17, Dati come back home with baby Saif, again, another sharing moments.*summer kalini rasa disayangi, almost all my siblings ask about me. ngee*

Lesson: Different people have different stories. Listen and learn from their life stories

18. Went to National Ibnu Sina Conference and Community Engagement (NICE) for second time in 4 years. Too many stories to share here! Love every bit of it. Seriously, if you ask me to describe about NICE in 3 words, I would say - AWESOME, ENJOYABLE, KNOWLEDGEABLE. Met Ustaz Hasrizal (my first time attend his program. at last! after soo many failed attempts) Listening to a talk from Muslim Specialist and practicing islam in their work, went to community service, met OKU, met younger medical students who are very enthusiastic, and have a more wonderful experience! Recharge my energy, boost my motivation.

Lesson: jangan culas dalam menuntut ilmu, Nothing is wrong with failure, but failing forward, not failing backward. Be the best student, the best doctor, Itqan! Daie professionals. Doctor fulfill the maqasid syariah, so please be serious. Usaha and then leave it to Him *too many lessons to be learnt.hehe*

19. was invited to give motivational and career talk at SMK Seri Bukit Puteri with the other two Besut girls. Alhamdulillah a new experience. I learn more.

Lesson: we make a living by what we get and we make a life by what we give. Be more grateful of what you have. 

20. Usrah with older people (like 50s, 60s) - mingle with older people is different than mingle with younger ones but I am enjoying ;)

Lesson: kutiplah mutiara walau di mana anda berada.

Hikmah itu adalah barang yang hilang milik orang yang beriman. Dimana saja ia menemukannya, maka ambillah (HR. Tirmidzi ) [tafsiran hadis - selagi mana himah itu tidak bercanggah dengan syara']

21. the most special one - all those great news. Alhamdulillah

Lesson: Allah is the most gracious and the most merciful. Be grateful to Him. Alhamdulillah :')

Thats the end of my summer in Malaysia. May Allah bless each time I have spent. Alhamdulillah safely arrive Eire.

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

Sahih International
By time,
Sahih International
Indeed, mankind is in loss,

Sahih International
Except for those who have believed and done righteous deeds and advised each other to truth and advised each other to patience.

p/s went to Psych Summer School back in eire, just before starting my new rotation. Alhamdulillah another new experience. :) Bismillah for the new semester. May Allah ease.

5.58 am
4 Zul Kaedah 1435H

Friday, August 15, 2014

Children's rights

Assalamualaikum and hi!

This is a summary of the UN Convention on the Rights of the Child (1989)

  1. Survival rights - The child's right to life and to the most basic needs- food, shelter, and access to healthcare 
  2.  Protection rights - against all forms of abuse, neglect, exploitation and discrimination
  3.  Participation rights - to take an active role in their communities and nations. 
  4.   Developmental rights- to achieve their full potential - education, play, freedom of thoughts, conscience and religion. Those with disabilities to receive special services

So, do you think Gaza's children got all their rights??

currently both sides are on ceasefire, so do the FB people - they are on 'cease-post', hopefully not the awareness. huhu.

a friend said, jangan jadi bermusim. agree much. Lets continue pray for them, for all victims of oppressors all over the world.

kalau bunyi mercun musim raya every seconds pon annoying, just wondering  how people in Gaza feel hearing bombing, missiles, every day? - quoted

p/s now is musim kahwin sana sini, well, at my age, it is normal. I bet next year I will be receiving more invitations. hurm. *Gepal tangan, pandang ke atas*

psst selangor milik rakyat, bukan parti. Pray for the best for Selangor. Allah knows best. Just my second thoughts, berjuanglah demi agama, bukan kuasa.

19 Syawal 1435H
Alor Lintang

Monday, August 4, 2014

islam is a tough religion?

Assalamualaikum and hi!

I have just watched this short video by Mohamed Zeyara, a young man who spread truth through FB, and youtube. Well, I think we can consider him as social media celebrity. hehe.

Anyway, here is the video and it get me inspired to share my stories with you.

Story 1

It was before Ramadhan. I went to Dublin by train and there was a lovely elderly Irish couple sit in front of me and the conversation start. [M=Men, W=Women, H=Me]

W: what religion are you?
H: Islam *with a big smile*
W; ouh, I thought you are a sister
H: eh, sorry? *not sure what she means by sister*
M: She means you are a sister, a nun

this is the first time people got me wrong and i am quite surprise. Why? in a media we read everywhere, always associate islam with hijab, oppressor and rarely with other religion. hurm, or is it because of my face? did my face look like a nun? lols.

Story 2

The same couple, the same train

M: why do you have to wear that? *pointing at my hijab*
H: Hurm, my religion ask me to wear that
M: I am not against it, but I think it is a shame to cover your lovely face
H: eh, hurm, but I feel safer this way
M: ouh, why is that?
H: I don't know how to explain it, but it is a very nice feelings *tak tahu nak susun ayat dahhh. adei*

and then, it was suddenly rained. and he said "i think I might need your scarf to cover it. hehe" and we laughed in joy.

after watching this video, I think I have the answer to your question sir.

"Islam is a discipline way of life"
"You might think all the stop signs and traffic lights are pointless, but all of these things are mean to ensure the safety and securities of the people and that is part of the faith as well.
Rasulallah s.a.w. taught us to be patient, respectful and discipline"

Story 3

In bus, on the way back to Galway. I slept late the night before because I need to sort things out i.e pack, clean up the house yadaa yadaa, so I slept in the bus *it was evening that time*, until there was an old women came and sat next to me I woke up to help her to sit, and the conversation start [W= women, H=me]

W: thank you so much, love. You can go back to sleep.
H: its ok. It is just I slept late last night.
W: you have a good late night?
H: erk *ahhhh sudah, dia dah salah faham*
W: you can have late night, but not drink too much, *and she start talking about the youth nowadays drink too much, the bad thing about drinking, sex, yadaa yadaa yadaa*
H: yeah, yeah I am agree with you. *and I told her last night I slept late because I pack  my things etc2. get the things right. hehe*
W: ouh i see
H; anyway, yup drinking is not good. even our religion didn't allow us to drink
W: at all?
H: yes, not allow at all
W: maybe a little?
H: nope, not at all
W: what religion are you?
H: *abuden ke makcik ni, aku pakai punya laa tudung, lols* Islam
W: ouh, Islam is a tough religion right?
H: erk, no. it is not that tough. *speechless with the response. tak tahu nak replied ape daaa*

she is a nice lady. We talk about lot of things, about health, drinking again, again and again. and end up, I didn't sleep at all after that :)

sekarang dah tahu dah nak jawab apaa. Islam is a way of life and it is not that difficult. Those rules are made not to be broken but to protect its believers, to become a better person, and at the same time to people around them (the believers). Islam means peace.

conclusion: read a lot, watch youtube on how to answer questions, go to seminar or any dakwah technique, gain lots of knowledge, upgrade it! it is just a simple question but if you are panic or not ready, you don't know what to answer. oh well, maybe it is just me.

Living abroad taught you lots of things, and never ever take for granted those small things about your religion, as small as the general part. Not just ibadah i.e pray, hijab, fasting issues

I am a muslim and I am proud of it.

p/s please pray for Gaza. The death toll keep on increasing. The Israelis keep on bombing the very small Gaza, and even they attacked the hospitals, schools, mosques and university! how cruel they are! There were lots of women and children died. :"( Please please please pray pray and pray! Thats our weapon. 

8 Syawal 1435H
Alor Lintang

Friday, August 1, 2014

Parut lama kembali berdarah

[a rant]

Manusia itu punya hati.
Kadang-kala luka, kadang-kala berdarah, kadang-kala bernanah.

Manusia itu sensitif.
Andai ditegur, rasa tercabar.
Andai ditanya, rasa duka.

Manusia suka rasa superior.
Rasa hebat.
Tapi lupa.
Ada lagi yang lebih hebat.
Yang Maha Esa.

Jangan pernah terasa.
Walau berada di bawah.
Kerana begitulah manusia.
Hanya seorang hamba.

Manusia itu suka berdengki.
Jika bujang, dengki pada yang sudah berkahwin.
Jika masih belajar, dengki pada yang sudah bekerja.
Jika masih belajar, dengki pada yang pandai.
Ahhh manusia.
Tidak pernah puas apa yang ada.
Terasa ingin ada semuanya.
Tidak bersyukur!

Manusia itu gopoh.
Ingin semuanya dalam sekelip mata.
Seperti ahli silap mata.
Mahu semuanya ada di depan mata.
Kadang-kala lupa yang gopoh itu syaitan.

Sakit hati.
Sakit dengan diri yang penuh dosa.
Sakit dengan perasaan yang memakan diri.
Sakit dengan sifat mazmumah yang sering kali kunjung tiba.

Kembalilah kepadaNya.
Kerana semuannya datang dari Dia.
Lupakah Dia itu jua Yang Maha Kuasa
Yang Maha Penyayang
Yang Maha Pemurah
Yang Maha Mengabulkan
Yang Maha Pengampun

Wahai dosa, pergilah dikau.
Wahai hati, kembalilah
Wahai diri, mohonlah padaNya

Wahai parut lama, jangan dibiar bernanah
Jangan dibiar berdarah lagi
Basuhlah ia dengan zikrullah.

Dear future me,
Whatever happens, keep calm, take a deep breath, smile and pray, dua'. All is well insyAllah. Stay positive and Allah knows best. It is just a test for you to become a better servant. Manusia yang paling tinggi disisi Allah adalah manusia yang bertaqwa. Thats the rank that Allah has put. Not because of your academic performance or your pangkat or your harta. but TAQWA. Ingat sampai mati!

Taqwa = berhati-hati seperti berjalan dijalan yang penuh dengan duri.. Be careful.

p/s Selamat hari raya! Taqaballahu minna waminkum. May Allah accepts our deeds.

Sunday, July 20, 2014

He is the best planner

Assalamualaikum and hi!

I was planning last night that today I will do stuffs early in the morning and bla bla bla. but it didn't work.
I slept at 5 am and woke up late, just about time to go to the hospital to met the reg. *we need to discuss something*

I have decided to wear t-shirt and khaki and sports shoes. Oh well, it is weekend anyway, why bother. I make a quick choice and I choose my Gaza t-shirt. huhu. feeling like pejuang skit. hehe. *you will know later on why I am mentioning ootd here which is sooo unusual*

Off I went to the hospital. and it turned out, he has three operations! oh well, ortho surgeons are always busy during summer.  We make a promise to meet at noon. but end up we meet at half 2pm -_-' a very long wait. I have lots of things I need to do, shopping for my brother's engagement, bank, packing, kemas kemas yadaa yadaa. So, it is kinda a lil bit stressful and I am aiming to go back to Galway today at 5 pm, the last bus. But looking at the condition, hurm, I don't think I can make it.

I cooked a lot last night and thought to distribute some to the reg and neighbor. We finished around 3pm plus plus. I am soooooo happpy!!! It is done!!!! Alhamdulillah!! *except just a lil bit more, but I am done the major work* and I have say a proper farewell to him, the reg! I thought I don't have time to do it since he is always busy. but Alhamdulillah I have say it. *yesterday was with the other buddy* It feels soo good when you manage to express how thankful you are to have good buddy who talk a lot and layan kerenah si blur medical student ni. hehe. but overall, Alhamdulillah. I am so happy. Hoping to see them again this September insyAllah.

Thats not the main story, actually -_-'' So, after I met him, I went to the town. oh, by the way, I have just received message in the morning my mom asked me to buy shoes for hantaran my brother. Bally shoes or Clark or anything like that *remind me of Bally shoes and bunga telur story. hehe* So, I need to do a lil bit of window shopping and yadaa yadaa.

I went to this shop. Well, to find guys shoes is not that difficult especially if it is something casual, leather, black and you know the size. But the difficult part is almost all shoes look the same for me. and it is difficult to choose. geee guyssss. Plus, it is for HANTARAN! bukan main-main. I hate doing shopping alone for someone else. I love shopping alone but if it is for myself. Like this case, I need second opinion. After almost half an hour there, I go out without buying. but I know I need to buy it today because I don't have much time.

And after hop on hop off some shops, I have suddenly saw this......

and I was WOW! in a small town like this, they make the solidarity?! amazing. I want to join but it was kinda awkward. I was alone and no one I knew was there. Erk.

So, I went to the other shop first and thought I might as well join. No regrets. I will be more regrets if I don't. I am just ignore the fact that today is Saturday and most of the shops close earlier than usual.

Allah will help me for sure. and indeed He is The Most Merciful.

I have no regrets at all and I feel more ease.

It was a wonderful experience. I have join one last year in Galway but there were lots of Malaysians and lots of my friends too.

This time. It is different.

I push the boundary. I push the limit, and get out from my comfort zone.

I talk to one lady. We share our grieves, our sympathy over the Palestinians people, we share news.
It is humanity, even we have different skin color, different race, different nationality but we are all united under one. Humanity.

And I was wearing Pray For Gaza t-shirt.

Indeed, He is The Best Planner.

even kids join the march

"Ya Allah, sesungguhnya kami letakkan Engkau di batang leher musuh-musuh kami, dan kami berlindung denganMU dari kejahatan mereka. Ya Allah, hancur leburkanlah kumpulan-kumpulan mereka! Kacau-bilaukan persatuan mereka! Cerai-beraikan pakatan mereka! Goncangkan pendirian mereka! Hantarkan ke atas mereka anjing-anjing Kamu! Wahai Tuhan Yang Gagah Perkasa, Wahai Tuhan Yang Bersifat Murka, Wahai Tuhan Yang Maha Menyiksa, Ya Allah, Ya Allah, Ya Allah. Wahai Tuhan yang menurunkan Al-Quran, wahai Tuhan yang menggerakkan awanan, wahai Tuhan yang menewaskan bala tentera Ahzab, kalahkanlah mereka, menangkanlah kami ke atas mereka…"

lets pray for Gaza. shall we. and it is not seasonal. It will be continue until we win! Ameen!

p/s I told the lady named Eva at the demo today that I wasn't plan to came, and in fact I have no idea at all that they will have this today, she was sooo amazed and telling almost everyone the story. Isn't it beautiful how Allah arrange our affair?

If I woke up early and went to town in the morning, I might miss this.
If the reg finish the operation early and I went to the town earlier, I might miss this
If I have decided to cancel the meeting with the reg and don't wait for him, I might miss this.
If my mom didn't ask me to buy the shoes, and I went to town just for a short while, I might miss this.
If I have decided to go back to Galway today, I might miss this.

ياَ حَيُّ ياَ قَيُّوْمُ

Wahai Tuhan Yang Maha Hidup, wahai Tuhan Yang Maha Berdiri Sendiri

بِرَحْمَتِكَ أَسْتَغِيْثُ

Dengan rahmatMU aku memohon pertolongan

أَصْلِحْ لِيْ شَأْنِيْ كُلَّهُ

Perbaikilah untukku urusanku semuanya

 وَلاَ تَكِلْنِيْ اِلىَ نَفْسِيْ طَرْفَةَ عَيْنٍ

On You Who is Everliving and Sustains and Protects everything, I seek assistance through the means of your mercy, correct for me all my affairs and do not entrust me to my Nafs (myself) for the moment of a blink of an eye

Apt 15
22 Ramadhan 1435H