Tuesday, September 29, 2015

50 years of marriage

Just a random chat over a coffee table.

Upon seeing me alone,  drink coffee at a busy hospital's cafe,  an old couple came. 

The wife is 69 years old and the husband is 75 years old. 

Typical conversation,  why you are here *history taking mode.  Lols*

And social chat. Haha.  Adei.

But this statement touch my heart.
"We are 50 years married next year.  We have 3 children,  all grown up and 9 grandchildren.  We are happy :) *

"My advice is if you don't want to go that road,  i. e responsible, living with each other, don't go.  It is very worrisome here.  They get married and separated,  divorced after 2 years" :(

Indeed,  marriage is not just about two people living together,  fall in love etc. It is more than that.  Accept the flaws,  improve yourself.  Nak bina ummah bak hang,  bukan nak bina rumah jaaaa.  *Not as intention to scare you but just to make you aware that.  Just a reminder. It is doable,  thou*

P/s they asked my age and said,  "you look younger than your age!"  Geeeee.  *fly high*

Pst random pictures in my camera phone of my lovely university  :)

15 Zulhijjah 1436H

Keep calm

Assalamualaikum wbt and hi!

The new rotation will start tomorrow and we have a new member. Adaptation mode on! Well, he is a nice guy but very very super duper smart. Now, you know what I am afraid of, right. Inferiority. Lols. Ouh oh and this rotation is tough. I need to be more proactive. Yosh!!

"You have to accept the inescapable fact, which is that you will encounter things in life that you cannot change, but you can deal with through patience and faith"

Whatever happens tomorrow tomorrow and tomorrow, let it be. Only Allah knows. So, don't worry and do your part. *take a deep breath in and out*

All is well.
Have faith in Him.
Have trust in him.

*say the prayers and let's study! *

P/s today's strolling along the Corrib River. Alhamdulillah nice weather, nice air. 
ps/s she is still in the hospital. Please make du'a for her. :(

15 Zulhijjah 1436H

Thursday, September 17, 2015

Absent minded

Assalamualaikum wbt and hi!

It is our third week in this rotation of a so-called hectic year.  So,  yeah. With this busy schedule,  I have just realised that I can be very absent-minded.  My actions kinds of weird I would say.  Like no ihsan (mind conscious) at all! And after it happens, I will be like OMG,  what am I doing?!!! And thank God,  I am still alive.  (I am not doing suicide stuffs,  okaaaayy)

But it is very funny when your iman is at a very low level,  you can act weird and regret later on.  (if you realised that you really do something wrong). Some people didn't even realise it until the end.  So,  dear myself, be grateful. Allah send His petunjuk to you that what you have done is wrong so that next time you will be more careful.  It is a lesson.  And  of course,  maybe it is a sign for me to do something, back to Him, cleanse your heart. 

When was the last time you do that? Hurmmmm.  (nak puasa pun beralasan.  Haish)

P/s my girlfriend is not feeling well.  Please pray for her speedy recovery! Take care,  dear.  May Allah protect you always.  Ouh and we have four TB cases in our university! Please pray for us too :(

Wednesday, September 2, 2015

Future plan?

The questions that I don't have the answer.

"What do you want to do after graduation? "
"What is your future plan?"

Honestly, I don't know.
I don't know until when I am here. In this wild world.
I don't know what happens in the future. 
I don't know what is the best for me.

I do plan. A lot!
And I love planning. 
But things are not that simple.
Because your life is not yours.
You have the responsibility.
I am a daughter to my parents.
I am a sister to my brothers and sisters.
I am PPG's best friend.
And the biggest thing is you are belong to the ummah.  Geee.

To be honest,  I want to settle down.  Get married,  have kids,  have good career (a specialist),  a better Muslim,  a dai'e (thing that I'm worried I can't.  But you know there is no such thing as perfect,  right).  Well,  heck.  Who doesn't want a perfect life? (currently reading a book entitled A Perfect Life by Danielle Steel.   Got awww and owww here and there. Lols)

We are dai'e right. Khalifah. That's the purpose of life. Ingat sampai mati.

وَإِذْ قَالَ رَبُّكَ لِلْمَلَائِكَةِ إِنِّي جَاعِلٌ فِي الْأَرْضِ خَلِيفَةً ۖ قَالُوا أَتَجْعَلُ فِيهَا مَنْ يُفْسِدُ فِيهَا وَيَسْفِكُ الدِّمَاءَ وَنَحْنُ نُسَبِّحُ بِحَمْدِكَ وَنُقَدِّسُ لَكَ ۖ قَالَ إِنِّي أَعْلَمُ مَا لَا تَعْلَمُونَ

And [mention, O Muhammad], when your Lord said to the angels, "Indeed, I will make upon the earth a successive authority." They said, "Will You place upon it one who causes corruption therein and sheds blood, while we declare Your praise and sanctify You?" Allah said, "Indeed, I know that which you do not know." 2;30

You can't deny that.  But have you act like one,  dear?  *slap*

So,  keep improving yourself,  please.  Dan jangan selfish.  Lols. 

P/s groupmates asked me this question earlier today and I was rambling about something andddd now I feel like jumping the cliff.  Oh, man!!!

18 Zulkaedah 1436H

Pic of Edinburgh Castle (last summer craziness) during sunset.

Tuesday, September 1, 2015

No man is an Island

No man is an Island,
Intire of it selfe,
Every man is a peece of the Continent,
A part of the maine;
If a Clod bee washed away by the Sea,
Europe is the lesse,
As well as if a promontorie were,
As well as if a Mannor of thy friends or of thine owne were.
Any man's death diminishes me,  because I am involved in makinde;
And therefore never send to know for whom the bell tolls:
It tolls for thee.

John Donne

OHCM 9th Edition. 

P/s first day of school as a final year.  Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.  May Allah bless this journey.  A mixed feelings.  Excited and scared!

Dear myself,
Let's change for the better. This time next year.  Exactly 1 year to go. 
No more distraction.
Be more focus.
Plan well!
Manage your time properly.  :)

17 Zulkaedah 1436H