Tuesday, December 17, 2013

[poem] 'Lady of Thillia'

'Lady of Thillia'

From thought and love all things once born,
earth, air, and sky, and knowing sea.
From Darkness old, all light is shone,
and rise above forever free.

In reverent voice, five brothers spoke
of sire's duty and wondered fare.
Their king's dying 'neath fortune's yoke,
from each demanded their landed care.

Five kingdoms great, born of one land.
To each fair prince his parcel part.
Dictates of will and dead sire's hand,
for each to rule with just and heart.

The first the fields, fair flowing flight,
whisp'ring winds the rushes calm move.
Another to sea, ships to right,
and crashing waves, the shorelines soothe.

The third of holes and gentlest sward,
crack of twig and shades darkling eye.
The fourth, the hills and valleys' lord,
where grazing plain and resting lie.

The last, the sun made shining home,
high seething heat, would ever last.
All five in wrote his true heart's tone,
true to all word and great kings past.

Each child did rule with true intent,
Embrac'ng demesne, all ruling fair.
Justice and strength, wisdom full lent,
each mouth to voice a grateful aire.

Yet fates' cruel games their pure hearts waste,
and each to arms this tryst above.
Five men consumed or woman chaste,
and all lives touch'd or strident love.

As gentle as a poem's heart,
was the beauteous woman born.
As subtle as all nature's art,
her wondrous heart all lives did warm.

When fire proud men, all brothers born,
beheld this dam, their loves did soar.
Or sweet Thillia, five loves sworn,
a handful kingdoms, to war.

Five armies clashed, their plows to swords,
farmers from fields, passion's commands.
Brothers once fair and loving wards,
sent salt to sea and wounded th' lands.

Thilllia stood on bloodied plain,
her arms outstretched, hands open wide,
Her griev'ed heart, cast down from shame,
fled far beneath lake's loving tide.

Perfection mourned her passing soul,
five brothers ceased their hollow fight.
They cried above, their hearts held whole,
and vowed to rise 'neath warriors night.

In faith they walked with modest stride,
to sleeping Thillia beneath.
The crashing waves their virtue cried,
the kingdoms wept their wat'ry wreath.

From thought and love all things once born,
earth, air, and sky, and knowing sea.
From Darkness old, all light is shone,
and rise above forever free.

This is what I recite when I was Standard 6 during poem competition at state level. but I was too nervous, I forgot some of the lines :( anyway, this poem is from a novel, The Death Gate Cycle, suggested by my brother.  It is actually about a love story. Brothers kill brothers because of women. :(  WOMEN, take care of yourself! you are precious!

The Prophet's narrations speak of women with praise and respect. He once said:

"The world and all things in it are precious, and the most precious thing in the world is a virtuous woman." (Ahmad and Muslim)

up until today I clearly remember this lines --> From thought and love all things once born,
earth, air, and sky, and knowing sea. *and I don't know why*

anyway, the lines suddenly popped up in my head and I decided to google it. so here it is. one of those memories. :)

p/s my childhood friend is getting married. *random*(not that random actually, since the friend was part of those memories :)

happy hols, people! and may Allah bless! 

Tuesday, November 26, 2013

[Song] Trust in Allah.

Trust in Allah

This life as you know
you reap what you sow
and when you do good
Allah will protect you 
and stop you falling down

Allah, we surrender
'cause He knows all no compromise
Hears your laugh
Feels your cries
He's there all the time

Make Dua 
Praise Allah
Our iman 
will grow

InsyaAllah we will go far
there is a long way to go

we pray solat
it's from the heart
love will keep us whole

and when you're feeling down
you know the way to go

Allahu Ya Allahu Ya
Allah, You know and feels in my soul
Allahu Ya Allahu Ya
Allah, You know how I feels in my soul
Ya Allah, You are everywhere we go

In Your name we will pray
I will keep to my faith
Search inner peace
Set me free
For my iman 
to raise

Allah, we surrender
I'm always looking out 
for the sign
to honor you
and make you proud
together we will shine

Make Dua 
Praise Allah
Our iman 
will grow

InsyaAllah we will go far
there is a long way to go

we pray solat
it's from the heart
love will keep us whole

and when you're feeling down
you know the way to go

Allahu Ya Allahu Ya
Allah, You know how I feels in my soul
Allahu Ya Allahu Ya
Allah, You know how I feels in my soul
Ya Allah, You're everywhere we go

When your world is going down
you think it's over
and everyone around you
builds you up
and knock you down

broken up in pain
i'm living my life this way
don't know which way to take?
it's like this every single day
and it's now time to change
finally feel awake
never gonna sit back fade away
no more wasting my days away

Allahu Ya Allahu Ya
Allah, You know how I feels in my soul
Allahu Ya Allahu Ya
Allah, You know how I feels in my soul
Ya Allah, You're everywhere we go

p/s 7 more days to final exam. Gather my strength and energy to face. Only to Him, I rely. ya Allah, You know what I don't know and please forgive our sins :"(

Riyadhus Solihin

Saturday, October 19, 2013

Learn to trust in all things - good and bad

Assalamualaikum wbt. and hi!

Actually I was thinking of writing about something else. but this thing couldn't be wait. Someone share it on Facebook. and I think it is worth keep it here.

Awesome Conversation between Allah and a Man.

Man: Allah, can I ask You a question?

Allah: Sure

Man: Why did You let so much stuff happen to me today?

Allah: What do u mean?

Man: Well, I woke up late

Allah: Yes

Man: My car took forever to start

Allah: Okay

Man: at lunch they made my sandwich wrong & I had to wait

Allah: Huummm

Man: On the way home, my phone went DEAD, just as I picked up a call

Allah: All right

Man: And on top of it all off, when I got home ~I just want to soak my feet in my new foot massager & relax. BUT it wouldn’t work!!! Nothing went right today! Why did You do that?

Allah: Let me see, the death angel was at your bed this morning & I had to send one of My Angels to battle him for your life. I let you sleep through that

Man (humbled): OH

Allah: I didn’t let your car start because there was a drunk driver on your route that would have hit you if you were on the road.

Man: (ashamed)

Allah: The first person who made your sandwich today was sick & I didn’t want you to catch what they have, I knew you couldn’t afford to miss work.

Man (embarrassed): Okay

Allah: Your phone went dead bcuz the person that was calling was going to give false witness about what you said on that call, I didn’t even let you talk to them so you would be covered.

Man (softly): I see Allah

Allah: Oh and that foot massager, it had a shortage that was going to throw out all of the power in your house tonight. I didn’t think you wanted to be in the dark.

Man: I’m Sorry Allah

Allah: Don’t be sorry, just learn to Trust Me…. in All things , the Good & the bad.

Man: I will trust You.

Allah: And don’t doubt that My plan for your day is Always Better than your plan.

Man: I won’t Allah. And let me just tell you Allah, Thank You for Everything today.

Allah: You’re welcome. It was just another day being your Allah and I Love looking after u all

Why Do we feel sleepy in Prayer,

But stay awake through a 3 hour movie?

Why are we so bored when we look at the HOLY BOOK,

But find it easy to read other books?

Why is it so easy to ignore a msg about Allah,

Yet we forward the nasty ones?

Why are Prayers getting smaller,

But bars and clubs are expanding?

Why is it so easy to worship a celebrity,

But very difficult to engage with Allah?

Allah said:
If you deny me in front of your friends, I will deny you on the day of judgment:

When one door closes , Allah opens two

:') *speechless*

He knows best.
Dear myself, trust Him. please. 

Ya Allah, jagakan dia untuk aku. dan jagakan aku dikala aku senang atau susah.
Law hawlawala quwataillah billah. Hanya kepadaMu aku bergantung harap. 

my sister send us this longgggg email. Here goes some part of it

"........We have tried our best, with allah's will, grace and guidance of course, that insyaallah papa is under the best known surgeon and insyaallah in the best possible hospital that we could find
From now on, semua di tangan allah yang rahman dan rahim,
And so from now on, i could not stress again regarding the importance of doa and solat hajat

But of course this is not to make evrybody doomed and gloomed
We have to carry on with our life but i hope we all would try our best this week and few weeks post surgery to come that try our best to prioritise papa and mami over other things, a remonder to myself also
They need our support at the moment, full support from all aspects,
Just offer what ever help you could to both of them
Even though they may not show it that they need it
But they do
Medics in the group would understand i hope ..... If not, recall back to one of your patients to relate
After all it is not always that papa go for surgery

And to those who think me and mami can handle it ourselves,
We cant do it all and we need your support too
I think that is all i want to say about this for now
Any questions from the floor ?

I think for now it is all about waiting and we would hopefully have no more updating until the surgery day
Please again make doa.... Doa betul2 dgn allah, setulus hati, sepenuh hati
We all love papa
And we all, even though dah 30 yrs old plus, still need papa to be around for many more years to come
So please make the doa

Kak sa"

will you make doa for my Dad too? *pretty please* :(

Riyadhus Solihin
13 Zulhijjah 1434H

Wednesday, September 18, 2013

Things are moving soooo fast


Kali ni nak bilingual ar. hoho.  Lets see if I can do that. Hehe.

It is 2 am and I am still awake. Thinking about how fast things have move! Called mum yesterday and told her that I slept at 3 am for almost a week. why? bukan belajar pon, it is just I can't sleep. golek-golek atas katil, tunggu mata lelap. did nothing. huhu. and mum said, Allah suruh pi semayang tahjud la tuh. ehehs.

Lately, I have been thinking. Everything is moving sooo fast! Itu apa yang aku fikir. But actually it is not. It is just inside my mind. Lets give a situation:

At home.
Things need to be done: Solat, study, baca quran, kemas bilik, masak, makan, online, whatsapp, makan lagi, print, online lagi, kerja itu, kerja ini, study lagi, baca buku cerita,baca buku ilmiah, study lagi, etc2 endless things to do. especially when internet around.

Internet is one of the factors. There are LOTS of other things as well. There are sooo many things we want to do. With the powerful technology, we can get information in a split second! and we are easily get anxious when someone reply our message/return our call late.

At university.
I have found a new place to study. Where things-look-like moving slow and steady. Well, it IS moving. The place is The Hub. It is not a library. It has sofas, snooker, cafe, table football. It is a nice place. I found peace there.yup, you can hear people laughing, people talking, but those things make me humane. If you ask me, does it has internet wifi? yes, it has! but it doesn't bother me so much to go online except for academic purpose. .

I can't study at the library anymore. It got me insane. Yes, I love books but the surrounding is so depressing. Everyone is studying and muka macam nak makan buku. I can't stand that. It makes me nervous and anxious. It makes me THINK I have sooooo much to study! *although the fact that yes I have to study a lot! haha* I can't stand too much pressure. I will easily feel inferior and end up, I choose to sleep. OVERsleep. hoho.

At college back then.
It reminds me of my college years, where everything moves slow and steady. Yes, we have CAS, EE and whatsoever. But with less distraction i.e internet slow, information pakai mulut je, phone jarang pakai except call rumah, no whatsapp, and plus the greeny environment. Both factors keep me alive and calm. I THINK I am a calm person back then, ke camne, classmate? hehe.

I did remember I still have time to lepak-lepak seorang diri di surau blok. Sit and do reflection. Muhasabah. or sit at the back of Blok F, facing ladang kelapa sawit, listening to motivational song alone while thinking about the future or went jog satu kolej.

It was the past. I did a lot of sharpening the saw huh? Things change. Now, I don't feel like do those things because I THINK I have soooo many things to do! and everything are moving so fast! a friend said, "this sem killer tau" and lots to study!  even nak buat ibadah pun, hati ke lain. haish.

but one day, i was listening to this kuliah online. and ustaz tuh cakap:

Manusia telah dijadikan (bertabiat) tergesa-gesa. Kelak akan Aku perlihatkan kepadamu tanda-tanda (adzab)-Ku. Maka janganlah kamu minta kepada-Ku mendatangkannya dengan segera.” (QS. al-Anbiya’: 37)

Rasulullah SAW bersabda “Tergesa-gesa itu berasal dari syaitan, kecuali pada lima tempat, karena sesungguhnya tergesa-gesa dalam hal itu termasuk sunnah Rasulullah SAW. yaitu: Memberi makan kepada tamu, jika menginap. Mengurus jenazah orang yang sudah meninggal. Mengahwinkan anak perempuan jika sudah baligh. Membayar hutang jika telah jatuh tempoh pembayarannya. Dan bertaubat dari dosa jika terlanjur mengerjakannya.” Ketergesa-gesaan dalam lima perkara ini sebenarnya bukanlah ketergesa-gesaan, akan tetapi pensegeraan untuk cepat dilakukan dengan pemikiran yang jernih dan matang terlebih dahulu.

“Ketenangan itu dari Allah dan tergesa-gesa itu dari syaitan” (HR. Tarmidzhi)

dan ada satu ayat tuh, ustaz tuh cakap jangan tergesa-gesa, ada kemungkinan kita tidak akan dapat apa yang kita gesakan. contohnya, kalau kita tergesa-gesa nak berjaya, takut-takut Allah tak bagi pun kita berjaya.

Time dengar ustaz tuh ulas, hati ni terus zapppppppppp..

so, sekarang dalam proses merelekskan diri. Relaks brother, relaks laaaa. *tiba-tiba lagu tuh datang. ehehs*

Sometimes when we are in calm, we can achieve more than when we are in anxiety. Belajar pun tak masuk kalau cuak. hoho. Another thing is  FB, orang zaman sekarang nak post/comment laju je. without thinking. *not all ye* itu juga termasuk dalam bahagian tergesa-gesa ye rakan-rakan.

Sikap berhati-hati itu adalah sikap terpuji dan sikap tergesa-gesa adalah sikap tercela.

Done the reflection for today! Mari ubah!

Riyadhus Solihin

p/s this tergesa-gesa apply in daily life. but in amalan, we are advisable to menyegerakan i.e solat.

: “Maka berlumba-lumbalah kamu dalam berbuat kebaikan.” (Surah al-Baqarah, ayat 148). 

keep calm and peluk tiang. ehehs. 

keep calm and play netball :D

pssst post yang agak releks and personal. I THINK this blog is getting personal ehs. 0_O  Oh well, blog muhasabah diri sama-sama. I am ain't perfect buddy. Moga anda belajar dari kesilapan diri yang kerdil ini. Life is full of adventure and accepting mistakes, a preparation for hereafter. Orang kata 'pack' barang untuk kehidupan di sana. May Allah bless!

Friday, September 6, 2013

The word success has 2 Cs no A

"workaholics vs workafrolic"
"work tops talent"
"most successful not the smartest but they work the hardest"
""If you're going to be successful in anything, the key thing is work hard"

"untuk berjaya tidak semestinya perlu intelligent. Orang yang rasa dia pandai, kurang berjaya kerana akan berhenti belajar. Kunci kejayaan adalah disiplin" - Prof Dr Muhaya.

credit: MDK team
Sesungghnya Allah tidak akan mengubah nasib sesuatu kaum kecuali kaum itu sendiri yang mengubah apa-apa yang ada pada diri mereka

From the book Terapi Berfikir Positif by Dr Ibrahim Elfiky. He keeps on saying those verses thousand times in order to have a positive mind. Indeed, you can do that!

p/s Hello September! Class has started. so, it means, busy busy busy days! May Allah ease :) pray pray and ask from Him!

Monday, September 2, 2013

Whatever. Malaih nak pikiaq.

What would society think?

As I grew older, i realize something. It does matter to a person what a society would think. Because thats had been taught *informally*  since we were small.  Disclaimer: This is a generalization of the current generation. Some might not think that way.

It is 1 syawal, eid celebration and we meet lots of people. So, at my age, there are tons of questions and i do realize people will give the best answer that will satisfy the society. Do u know what i mean? 
Example between an aunt (A) and a not so old and not so young women (W)

A: belajar kat mana?
W: University
A: oversea kaa?
W:  aah
A: wahhhh course apa?
W: medic
A: bila nak habih?
W: tak lama dah

Oh well, it is a fact that she is studying medicine abroad, not a lie. But at one point i dont think those questions appropriate in our society anymore. I know it is kind of breaking the ice, catch up things, etc2 but those questions encourage the society to think a proper education is everything! Neglecting the skills, interpersonal skills, critical thinking, and tons of other abilities that makes the diversity! 

It is sort of instill in the children mind that those As are as important as everything else! And get into a university is the ultimate goal.  And when he/she didn't perform in school, the first thing that strike - KALAU orang tanya macam mana?? Heck! Don't think about what others think! Just do your best and if u didn't perform it is not the end of the world! Life is not just about books! 

Just do good in whatever you do, for ummah's benefit in the future.  Not to impress the society.  Benefit and impress are two different words/actions.

Just get your intention correct. Niat. 
Lillahita'ala. not because of the society or family or parents. But for the religion. For Him, The Almighty. 

Another fav question. Marriage.

Bila nak kawen? Bila nak buat majlis? 
I know i did ask this kind of question a lot to my friends and seniors. Kinda teasing. *shouldn't :( * *muhasabah*

Indeed marriage is a good thing. Never disagree on that. But THE act of asking that question  is not a good thing! Why? The question is kinda urge u to get married regardless who the future husband/wife is.  The main thing about the marriage is not just the kenduri thingy, it is more than that! And the question shouldn't be ask recklessly. 

I know some might think alaaa soalan nak kenen2kan ke. Ok. If thats the case, go on. Maybe u want to know whether he/she has somebody or not. Then, make sure there is an action, not just asking for the sake of teasing or break the ice. I know i did that sometimes. It is because I am so get used of accepting that kind of questions and I think it is ok. But today I think again. It might be ok for me because I know my family would not allow me to get married soon. So I have answers to all those questions. But for those who are graduating/working/ studying but parents allow to get married and doesn't have anyone to get married to, it would be something depressing when receiving those questions. And we don't want to make the situation awkward or disappoint the person who ask, so we will think the best answer without hurting the one who asked. 

Copyright: Qabsah Anisah

Instead of thinking the answer, lets stop doing that to others. Both two questions are my fav question too. Never disagree on that. *Sigh*. But maybe this Syawal will become my turning point. Instead of ask those questions, why not asking something better. 

"Apa khabar KL? Any good improvement in crime rates?"
" makin banyak tembak menembak, macam mana ni?"
"Majlis ilmu dekat JB amacam?"
"How's the culture oversea? How they accept u guys yang pakai tudung?"
"Dah baca buku ni? baguih ni"

Soalan ummah. 

Bila makin tua.
With great power comes great responsibility

Abu Hurairah relates that Allah's Messenger (peace be upon him) said;" Whoever believes in Allah and the Last Day should speak a good word or remain silent. And whoever believes in Allah and the Last Day should show hospitality to his neighbor. And whoever believes in Allah and the Last Day should show hospitality to his guest" [Sahih Al-Bukhari and Sahih Muslim]

p/s it is a generalization. Some people just ignore the questions and malaih nak pikiaq, but some yes. Like me, a perfect melancholic personality. I tend to think more. Even on a small thing. hoho. Perfectionist katakan. Lols. 

1 Syawal 1434H
Open house rumah kak Yong. 

Thursday, August 29, 2013

The road not taken

"Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth; 

Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim
Because it was grassy and wanted wear,
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day! 
Yet knowing how way leads on to way
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I,
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference."
-Robert Frost

I walked down the street. Towards the beach. With headphone on my ears, At full volume.
Walking. walking and walking. Alone.

My mind goes wild.

Thinking how grateful I am.
I have everything I NEED. Indeed not everything I want.
But thats enough for me to survive.
On this road, the road not taken.

My mum once said, " why you choose medicine? You looks passionate on tech more"

But I choose the road not taken.
I did well in Physics, then Biology in secondary school.
I did well in Maths, then Biology or Chemistry in college.
But I still choose this path.
The road not taken.
as Robert Frost said, I doubted if I should ever come back.

If you ask me, Do I ever feel scared?
I'm lying if I said no.
I'm scare.
Scare of losing everything.
Scare of disappoint people I love.
Scare of debt.

And I'm wonder, how the Eygptians, the Palestenians, the Syrians face everyday?
They losing everything, everyday.
Shelters, family, money, food
And no one knows what will happen on the next day.

While sitting on a rock at the seaside,an Irish men came and smile at me.
" It is a nice weather, yah. Appreciate each moment you have in life, lad""
Whichever road you take, appreciate the scenery, the moment.
Because you never know when will you ever come back.
Thank you Allah for giving me the chance, the opportunity.

I keep asking myself.
"Where goes wrong?" "What are the things that I missed?"
Later, I realized. Instead of asking that, why not this
"Where should I start afresh?" "What are the things I need for the future?"
I look on my wall. 
A big poster - 
*slap* *wake up girl*

"Let me tell you something you already know. The world ain’t all sunshine and rainbows. It’s a very mean and nasty place, and I don’t care how tough you are, it will beat you to your knees and keep you there permanently if you let it. You, me, or nobody is gonna hit as hard as life. But it ain’t about how hard you hit. It’s about how hard you can get hit and keep moving forward; how much you can take and keep moving forward. That’s how winning is done! Now, if you know what you’re worth, then go out and get what you’re worth. But you gotta be willing to take the hits, and not pointing fingers saying you ain’t where you wanna be because of him, or her, or anybody. Cowards do that and that ain’t you. You’re better than that!" - Rocky Balboa

 How much you can take, how much you can get hit and keep moving forward.
Keep moving forward.

Giant's Causeway. Long time ago. Searching for peace and serenity.

He is the Most Merciful of the Merciful. Believe in Him.

21 Syawal 1434H

Tuesday, August 27, 2013

Ibu, Mak, Mama, Mami, Bonda, Mom,

Assalamualaikum and hi!
I have actually wrote this post in my ipod. but i lost it. So, here it goes. rewrite it all over again. *sigh* never mind. This is actually good. Keep me busy. hoho.

It was last month. On the way back from picking up my brother at the airport. I was sleeping and my mum was driving. My brother tried to stay awake to accompanied her. It was a 2 hour journey during fasting month. So, you know how tired it is. hehe. *alasan =P*

it wasn't long before I was suddenly woke up. Kinda weird when a sleepyhead can wake up by herself. LOLS. *my brother-in-law keep on teasing me about this. oh, not just him, but the whole family!* it is in my gene you know. hahaha. Forget it. Back to the story. After I woke up, I don't know why, it was inside me saying, 'go and offer to drive' and yeah, i did that. I drove home and my mum fell asleep at the back of the car. *gee, i didn't know she was so sleepy. Lucky I made that decision.

When we arrived home, we have this kind of conversation. between me and my mum.

Mom:     thank you for driving home
Me :       no problem. I didn't know you are that tired. I would offer it earlier
Mom :     you didn't know? *ask with a curious face*
Me:        yah, I didn't know
Mom:     so, why do u offer to drive?
Me :     oh well, just feel want to drive. hehe * plus, it is a new car, haven't got a chance to drive that yet*
Mom:   Wow. DId you  know, before you wake up, I was thinking to ask you to drive. Just inside my head. 
Me:        well, your wish has been granted by Him, the Almighty, Mum *grin*
Mom:      I should be careful of what I wish for 

End of that story. This is not the first time. There are several episodes of this, not just between us but between my other siblings too.I watched with my own eyes. Indeed, mother's prayers are powerful. The famous Si Tenggang story is not just a story.  It is a story with full of moral and advice. To be more real, just sit down and have a nice talk with your mum. Then you will know what is inside her heart and try to link with couple of events. If you still don't believe, read this story, sirah at the end of this post.  *malay la tapi and agak panjang but meaningful* 

My advice my dear friends and readers: Do good to your parents as long as they are still alive and be dutiful to them as long as not against the religion. Be patience. 

May Allah bless you!

ini belum jadi mak. ini orang berlagak jadi mak. haha. one day, sister, one day. amin. 

The seerah ----------

Juraij Al-Abid adalah salah seorang ahli ibadah yang soleh di kalangan Bani Israil. Awal mulanya dia adalah seorang pedagang, kemudian dia meninggalkan perdagangannya dan cenderung kepada ibadah. Dia membangunkan sebuah tempat ibadah untuk beribadah kepada Allah di dalamnya. Dia beruzlah dari manusia, dan inilah rahbaniyah di mana Allah dan Rasulullah melarang kita untuk menjadikannya sebagai cara hidup.

Juraij mempunyai seorang ibu yang solehah. Pada suatu hari si ibu datang untuk mengunjungi anaknya dan ingin berbincang dengannya. Si ibunya datang dan memanggilnya. Pada ketika itu dia sedang solat, maka dia lebih mengutamakan solatnya daripada menjawab panggilan ibunya.

Esok harinya ibu mengulangi panggilannya, begitu pula di hari ketiga. Nasibnya pada kali kedua dan ketiga tidaklah lebih baik daripada nasibnya di kali pertama. Kerana itu ibu Juraij marah, lalu dia berdoa atasnya dan Allah mengabulkan doanya. Ibu Juraij berdoa agar Allah tidak mematikannya hingga menjadikannya melihat wajah pelacur.

Allah telah menyiapkan sebab-sebabnya dengan mengutus seorang pelacur untuk merayu dan menggodanya. Penyebabnya adalah bahawa Bani Israil cemburu dengan kebaikan dan ibadah Juraij. Maka wanita ini begitu meragui Juraij, kesolehan dan ketaqwaannya. Dia yakin  bahawa jika dia yang merayunya, maka Juraij akan bertekuk lutut dan jatuh seperti yang lain. Wanita ini begitu percaya diri dengan alasan kecantikannya dan berdasarkan hadis disebutkan bahawa mereka telah memilih wanita ini kerana kecantikan dan kemolekannya. Orang-orang yang terjerumus ke dalam lumpur kenistaan mengira bahawa semua manusia adalah seperti yang mereka kenal. Mereka tidak menyangka bahawa di antara manusia terdapat hamba Allah yang menjauhi kenikmatan dunia yang hanya sementara dan tidak abadi, juga bahawa terdapat di kalangan mereka orang-orang yang beriman dan bertaqwa yang terpelihara sehingga tidak terjerumus ke dalam kenistaan dan perbuatan keji.

Di antara mereka adalah Nabiyullah Yusuf As. yang menjadi tauladan dan Al-Qur'an telah menyampaikan kisahnya. Lalu si Juraij yang digoda oleh wanita pelacur itu langsung tidak dipedulikannya, tidak tergoda dan terus khusyuk dalam ibadah dan solatnya, seolah-olah dia tidak melihat dan menyaksikannya.

Si pelacur itu amat kecewa dengan tindakan Juraij yang tidak tergoda dengan pujuk rayunya. Sekarang, dia pulang dengan tangan kosong. Keinginannya gagal dan impiannya kandas. Dengan itu, si pelacur telah mengambil keputusan untuk tetap menfitnah Juraij. Ini karena dia telah berjanji kepada orang-orang yang memperkatakan kebaikan Juraij agar ia memfitnahnya dan menjerumuskannya ke dalam pelukannya.

Oleh sebab itu, dia membuat rancangan besar terhadap Juraij. Wanita ini telah pergi kepada seorang penggembala yang menginap berhampiran tempat ibadat Juraij. Dia menginap bersamanya dan berbuat onar dengannya. Hasilnya, dia hamil. Dan apabila bayi itu dilahirkan, dia mengatakan bahawa bayi itu adalah hasil perbuatan Juraij ahli ibadah.

Juraijlah pelaku perbuatan buruk ini. Ini bererti Juraij beribadah secara dusta, kebaikannya hanyalah sekadar pemanis yang palsu. Betapa sedih dan marahnya orang-orang kampung kerana mereka percaya kepadanya atas kebaikan, ketaqwaan dan keteguhan beragama, kemudian ternyata sebaliknya. Orang-orang yang mereka percayai hanya serigala berbulu domba atau musang berbulu ayam untuk menipu orang-orang bodoh. Maka, mereka pun menentangnya, sebagaimana orang-orang yang memperlakukan rahib yang diceritakan oleh Salman ketika dia mengambil dan menimbun harta sedekah mereka. Mereka menyalibnya setelah dia mati dan menolak menguburkannya.

Penduduk kampung mendatangi Juraij dengan kemarahan yang memuncak di hati. Mereka meminta Juraij turun dan meninggalkan ibadah dustanya. Tetapi Juraij tidak menghiraukan panggilan mereka kerana dia terus larut dalam ibadah dan solatnya. Pada saat itu dengan segala kelengkapan yang ada mereka merobohkan tempat ibadat Juraij. Melihat keadaan itu Juraij pun keluar untuk menemui mereka. Akibatnya, mereka telah memaki dan memukulnya.

Ketika Juraij bertanya tentang alasan kemarahannya, mereka menceritakan tentang perbuatan Juraij. Mereka meminta agar Juraij bertanya kepada wanita yang telah mengakui apa yang dia akui itu. Juraij tersenyum mendengar ucapan mereka. Dia benar dalam ibadahnya, jujur dalam istiqamahnya. Dia yakin tidak melakukan seperti tuduhan mereka. Tuduhan wanita hina itu hanyalah dusta yang terbuka. Juraij meminta kepada orang-orang yang marah agar memberinya peluang untuk berwudhu dan solat sebentar. Selesai solat dia mendatangi bayi yang baru dilahirkan beberapa jam atau beberapa hari. Juraij menusuk perutnya sambil bertanya, sementara orang-orang terdiam, "Siapa bapamu?"

Sebuah ayat Allah yang menunjukkan kepada-Nya dan kepada besarnya kudrat-Nya, bayi itu berbicara dengan suara yang terdengar, ucapan yang jelas dan difahami. Bayi itu menjawab, "Bapaku adalah fulan pengembala kambing." Orang-orang menyedari besarnya kejahatan mereka terhadap seorang hamba soleh. Mereka mengetahui bahwa Juraij tidak termasuk dalam tuduhan itu. Juraij bukanlah seorang penipu, dia benar dalam ibadah dan kesolehannya, dan bahwa wanita inilah yang telah berdusta dengan menuduh Juraij. Mereka menyedari bahawa mereka telah terburu-buru mempercayai tuduhan itu, sebagaimana mereka telah memukul Juraij dan merobohkan tempat ibadatnya. Orang-orang itu rasa bersalah pada Juraij. Mereka menawarkan kepadanya untuk membangunkan tempat ibadahnya dari emas atau perak tetapi Juraij menolaknya. Dia meminta supaya tempat ibadahnya dikembalikan dengan tanah seperti sedia kala. Mereka melakukan seperti yang diminta Juraij. Setelah selesai Juraij masuk kembali untuk beribadah kepada Tuhannya.

Allah telah memakbulkan doa ibu Juraij pada Juraij. Akan tetapi Allah menyelamatkannya dengan kesolehan dan ketaqwaannya. Terdapat dua pelajaran yang berharga pada dikabulkannya doa ibu Juraij dan selamatnya Juraij.

(Kisah diatas diambil dari hadis yang diriwayatkan oleh Bukhari Muslim dalam sahihnya dari Abu Hurairah. Hadis di dalam Sahih Bukhari dalam Kitab Ahadisil Anbiya’, bab firman Allah, "Dan sebutlah Maryam dalam Al-Kitab." (QS. Maryam: 16), 6/476, no. 3436. Dan diriwayatkan oleh Muslim dalam Kitabul Bir Was Shilah, bab mendahulukan Birrul Walidain di atas solat sunnah, 4/1976, no. 2550.)

Saturday, August 3, 2013

Happy birthday, Mom

This post entry is a combo! Oh well, i did wrote about Mum on 12 Ramadhan. So, lets combine with this one. Hehe

Dear Mom,

Happy 64th Birthday. 
Thank you for all these years.
May Allah grant you with Jannahtul firdaus.
Semoga panjang umur dan diberkati selalu.
I love you and always do.
I am sorry for any wrongdoings.
I will try to become a good daughter. Not a spoil one. Ehehs. <3

P/s whenever you see your phone, remember me kay. Hehe. Hope you like it :)

3 August 2013
25th Ramadhan 1434H

A precious daughter

A recent conversation between a mother and a daughter

M: did you know you are very precious?
D: really?
M: yes, you are! Before we make this house, we met the architect and specially request for ur room next to ours! 
D: T.T

Sometimes we take for granted on what we have. I have the SMALLEST room in this house but it is exactly next to my parents'. Yeah, you can call me anak mak. I dont care because I follow the Prophet's footstep.

Abu Hurairah (radi Allahu anhu) reported that a person came to the Messenger of Allah (sal Allahu alaihi wa sallam) and asked: “Who among people is the most deserving of my fine treatment?” He (sal Allahu alaihi wa sallam) replied: “Your mother.” He then asked, “Who next?” The Prophet (sal Allahu alaihi wa sallam) replied: “Your mother.” He asked again: “Who next?” He (sal Allahu alaihi wa sallam) said again, “Your mother.” He again asked, “Then who?” He (sal Allahu alaihi wa sallam) said: “Your father.” [Sahih Bukhari]

Those conversation doesnt mean my parents love me more than my other siblings but it means how much they care about me. Why I say so?

1. I am the only daughter who didnt get married yet
2. This is my one & only home
3. I am a girl or women? =P

I just love the way it is. When one day, I change my status *with Allah's will* it would be different. Both of them are getting older but I will not be able to be there at their side just like this anymore. To think about it, I feel sad. 

Am i being a good daughter to them? 

Pssttt i know i will get married late looking at this condition and conversation. Indeed it is a tough decision for me and for them. To whoever-my-future-husband if you read this, i am sorry. Lols. Gaya macam retis gitewww. =P

12th Ramadhan 1434H

Friday, August 2, 2013

doa....... sunguh-sungguh!

Alkisah pulang ke kampung...

Doa Al Quran. Terjumpa buku kecil ini di kampung. Sebuah buku yang dijadikan buah tangan ketika majlis kenduri kahwin salah seorang saudara mara kami.  menarik.

maka, bermulalah sesi meng-copy paste. ahaks. so, this entry is kinda to remind me where i put the list. hohoh. kalau nak amalkan pun, silakannnnnn. *mata bulat*

nway, everytime i pray, this words keep coming inside my head. "kalau nak doa, doa sungguh-sungguh. itu Tuhan, bukan kawan" - a cool advice.

Sahih International
And your Lord says, "Call upon Me; I will respond to you." Indeed, those who disdain My worship will enter Hell [rendered] contemptible. 40;60

Sahih International
And to Allah belong the best names, so invoke Him by them. And leave [the company of] those who practice deviation concerning His names. They will be recompensed for what they have been doing. 7;180
so, here comes the list! *ready with the Magnificent Book, pen, paper* yeah!

1. Negara aman makmur 2; 216
2. Amal diterina 2;127
3. Keluarga dapat kebahagian dlm Islam 2;128
4. Anak cucu tetap pelajari AlQuran 2;129
5. Doa selamat dunia alkhirat 2;201
6. Kesabaran 2;250
7. Mohon tiada beban 2;286
8. Hati tidak sesat 3;8
9. Mohon ampun dan jauh dr neraka 3;16
10. Kemuliaan dunia akhirat 3;26
11. Rezeki tanpa batas 3;27
12. Keturunan baik 3;38
13. Mohon kekuatan 3;147
14. Tatkala kagin 3;191
15. Tidak masuk beraka 3;192
16. Bersama org baik 3;193
17. Tidak sedih di akhirat 3;194
18.mohon rezeki 5;114
19. Tidak rugi 7;23
20. Terbuka segala urusan 7;89
21. Diberi kesabaran 7;126
22. Mohon rahmat 7;151
23. Tahu diri 11;47
24. Wafat dalam Islam dan dapat teman org soleh 12;101
25. Keamanan negeri dan tidak syirik 14;35
25. Jauh diri dari sesat 14;36
27. Mudah naik hajj, jaga solat dan murah rezeki 14;37
28. Mohon senang solat 14;40
29. Mohon ampun 14;41
30. Mohon jalan yg benar 17;80
31. Keluar dari kesulitan 18;10
32. Penenang hati 20;25-28
33. Mohon tambah ilmu 20;114
34. Selamat dari pendusta 23;26
35. Mohon kedudukan mulia 23;28
36. Selamat dari godaan syaitan 23;97
37. Mohon tidak dihinggapi syaitan 23;98
38. Mohon dijauhkan dari hawa nafsu 23;106
39. mohon tidak kembali sesat 23;107
40. Mohon ampun dan kasih sayang Allah 23;509
41. Mohon selamat dari neraka 25;65
42. Mohon keluarga idaman 25;74
43. Mohon termasuk orang soleh 26;83
44. Kebaiksn kita jd sebutan anak cucu 26;84
45. Mohon jadi ahli syurga 26;85
46. Syukur nikmat 27;19
47. Taubat kesalahan dulu 28;16
48. Dijauhkan dari orang jahat 28;21
49. Mohon jalan yang lurus 28;22
50. Dipenuhi keperluan 28;24
51. Selamat dari kerosakan 29;30
52. Anak dan keturunan jadi orang soleh 37;100
53. Penutup doa 37;180-182
54. Keluasan rahmat dan ilmu 40;7
55. Masuk syurga bersama keluarga dan keturunan 40;8
56. Mohon hindar dari kejahatan 40;9
57. Syukur atas nikmat 48;15
58. Dijauhkan dari kebencian sesama orang beriman 59;19 
59. Mohon sikap tawakak 60;4
60. Mohon terhindar dari fitnag 60;5
61. Mohon kesempurnaan cahaya petunjuk 68;8
62. Mohon ampun bg diri, orang tua, org yg masuk rumah kita 71;28

6 ramadhan 1434H
Kota bharu