Monday, May 30, 2016

Do good because He loves those who do good

Beautiful advice by the great scholar Imam Ibn al-Qayyim (rahimahullah):

“A friend can not share your struggles, 

and a loved one cannot physically take away your pain, 

and a close one will not stay up the night on your behalf. 

So look after yourself, protect yourself, nurture yourself and don’t give life’s events more than what they are really worth. 

Know for certain that when you break no one will heal you except you, and when you are defeated no one will give you victory except your determination. 

Your ability to stand up again and carry on is your responsibility. 

Do not look for your self worth in the eyes of people; look for your worth from within your conscious. 

If your conscious is at peace then you will ascend high and if you truly know yourself then what is said about you won’t harm you.

Do not carry the worries of this life because this is for Allah. 

And do not carry the worries of sustenance because it is from Allah. 

And do not carry the anxiety for the future because it is in the Hands of Allah.

Carry one thing: How to Please Allah. 

Because if you please Him, He Pleases you, fulfils you and enriches you.

Do not weep from a life that made your heart weep. Just say, "Oh Allah compensate me with good in this life and the hereafter.”

Sadness departs with a Sajdah. 

Happiness comes with a sincere Du'a. 

Allah does not forget the good you do. Nor does he forget the good you did to others and the pain you relieved them from. 

Nor will He forget the eye which was about to cry but you made it laugh.

Live your life with this principle: Be good even if you don’t receive good, not because of other’s sake but because Allah loves those who do good.“ 

Ibn Qayyim



22 Syaban 1437

Hang it there.

8 days to Ramadhan. Allahu.  



21 Syaban 1437H 

Saturday, May 21, 2016

Stop having expectations

Lessons to be learnt.

Expectations hurt when it does not meet.

Be it to yourself or to other people.

You expect people to react the way that you want.

You expect people to have the same feeling as yours.

You expect people to do things.

You expect people to say things that you want to hear.

You expect you can achieve that and that.

You expect you can do that and that.

You expect things going on as plan.

You expect.....

You expect....

You expect.....

Too many expectations from a person.

Too many expectations from myself.

Learn to accept the way they are.

Learn to accept the fate.

Learn to accept your ability.

Learn to let go.

Learn to move on.

Learn to understand.

Learn to learn about other people.

A long talk with my sister and she told me this, don't expect he will change to the person you want. You need to accept the way he is. You need to be patience. Never stop loving, never stop knowing him after married.

(oh well, applicable to everything, everyone we know and it is a two way thing. Including your best friends, your friends, studygroup mate, family etc)

Adiós, feelings. Penat ar layan perasaan. Ok. Just joking :P

Adiós, expectations!

Bon voyage, classmates.

Bon voyage, groupmates.

All the best in your future undertaking.

Ola, Prof Kerin, books, MAU, Dr Gallagher, Dr Goulding, Dr Finn,

Class of 2016, you guys will be missed.


16 Syaaban 1437H

Sri Damansara

The day I decide to hide the tears. Ok, just joking #swiss16
I'm lucky to have you in my life. Thank you for lending your shoulders and ears and be there during the tough time.  #whenweseeprof

last day of exam. #beforeeverythngchange

with a very positive classmate and a clingy one. lols. JK. #lastdayofexam
rumah kurning yang suka hijack kak yanti :P #lastdayoftutorial 

bride-to-be. lagi advance dari kakak ni. hoho. #adikakaktalk

last rotation #teamcastlebar

a prompt visit my kesayangan #whenheisnotwell #edin16

break time. team #lectureblock
The dream team - big brother, little brother, little sister #awesometeam

international dinner #team90s

 with Dean School of Medicine #can'tsaygoodbyeyettothisman. hoho


It is not the end. It is just the beginning. Hang it there.
Stop having expectations and move on.

Whatever happens, Allah knows, Allah is always there.

Berhenti berharap pada manusia. Kerana tuhan ada.

Wednesday, May 18, 2016

Bachelors of wisdom


While doing some survey on living in Eire, a young man approached me. Showing me his volunteer licence, IC, letter about this nursing home. Asking for money for food i.e rice.
After explained about the nursing home etc. I asked about him, as I saw his IC, he is younger than my brother! He is only 21 y/o.

K: so you are a volunteer?
M: yup
K: are you still studying?
M: nope, it has been 3 years I stopped studying, last time was Form 5.
K: so, you are working?
M: yup, but not enough to give to this nursing home. I am not from rich family. My family needs money too.
K: And you did part time volunteering?
M: yup. We come here only for 4 hours. I have been here for 3 hours, and now I need to find 6 more in 1 hour!

And then, I'm mumbling something. Sobs. Rasa macam tampar diri sendiri.

Dalam hati menangis. There are people who didn't get the same opportunity as you are. And yet, you are not grateful. :(

Dear myself,

Do your best. Give it all out! Be grateful. Ada orang lagi tidak bernasib baik. Jangan banding dengan mereka yang sudah berjaya, tapi banding dengan yang tiada punya apa-apa. Strive for a better person, muslim. Do your best so that you can give other people the same opportunities. Give back to society! Kalau ada bachelors of medicine tapi lupa daratan, tidak jadi hamba bersyukur, tak guna jugak. *sila tampar diri sendiri*


P/s gambar kasi syukur dapat peluang pergi jalan siap. Haish. #swiss16

10 Syaban 1437H

He is sufficient.


Allah is sufficient.

The day when I wake up. Looking at the ceiling. Thinking about what happened. Thinking what I have been go through. The tears rolled down my cheek.

"Why me? "

"ini semua kerja syaitan" deep inside. Trying to ignore those. Without realising, I went back to sleep. Fighting those feelings. Depression? Nah, I have been gone through worse. I was over thinking.

"from Him we came, to Him we shall return and He is sufficient "

The sentence keep on chanting in my head. Day by day. Went to see the world, hoping to find strength in nature. But in the end, the answer is in front of my eyes.

Count the blessings. Count the blessings.
For whatever happens, leave it to Him, The Almighty.

4 Syaban 1437H

In Highland, Scotland 2015 summer loneranger craziness.  Beruzlah mengenal tuhan.  

Sunday, May 1, 2016


Just finished 2/3 of exams, and another 1/3 more to finish med school. And here I am writing a blog post. Well this is the best I can do to keep myself calm *you can chanting this now. Lols. oh well, 1/3 is another 5 days more. A bit of study break a.k.a waiting for prayer*

Indeed, the past few days were tough. Yesterday was the toughest, almost lost my grip.*get angry with my housemate but she didn't know. Sobs, I guess people never know whether I am angry or not. or maybe she knows but she just ignored? Idk*

Anyway, I guess it is worth sharing here. A reminder to future me and a booster for few more days until exam.

This morning, wake up with listening to 5 hours of youtube lectures on stress, sadness, depression, tribulations, and other synonyms to those negative stuffs. Morning meditation plus cooking halwa telinga. Lols.

Being an introvert and so-called perfectionist, there are no room of mistakes. And it kills.
Kills your mood, motivation, feelings, improvements. That's why Allah keep on giving me tests and mistakes. To uplifts my iman, to teach me, to improve myself to become a better servant, to remind myself,"it is okay to make mistake" Ingat sampai mati.

Even when you make sins, and you repent, Allah forgives you. He is Al-Ghafar, Al-Ghafur. So, why not you forgive yourself? You are so easily forgive other people who make mistake/back-stab/fitnah to you, and you are so easily empathy and sympathy to other people, why not you have a bit mercy on yourself too? Why not you have empathy and sympathy on yourself? Why not you forgive yourself? Why you are being so hard on yourself? Forgive yourself. Learn to love yourself more. Learn to appreciate yourself. It is okay to make mistake. Even Allah forgive His servant, why not you forgive yourself. Don't be too hard, dear. 

So, dear future me, a.k.a 40s year old gorgeous lady, lols,

For whatever happens, relate back to Allah. It is just a small hurdle. You have gone through worse and you survived. Learn to be grateful. Learn from mistakes. Learn to move on. Life is more than that. Cherish each moment. Breath in. It is not the end of the world. Redefine success. Redefine yourself. It is just another test. If you are down, lift up your head to Him. If you are up, lift down your head, prostrate to Him.  At the end of the day, you will be grateful it happens. Keep smiling :) It is okay. It is okay. All is well.

20ish year old you. Lols

back to books. 

p/s Here it goes this morning meditation. huhu. Excuse the grammar. Too lazy to check. lols. While you are so down, the least thing you want to do is to check the grammar. 

23 Rejab 1437H