100 days

Salam and Hi!

100 (+7) days more to my final exam. MCQ, long case, and short cases!!

Ujian dunia. Huhu.

To be honest, it feels so unreal. This is the year that I have been looking forward to since years ago. To get this degree.

Some people may say just another degree. Orang dah ada master bagai. Lols. Well, look at how passionate you are into the job. So, it is not just a degree. It is more than that.

Anyway, that's not my point. Here is what inside my mind. Rambling tiada faedah. Feel free to change your browser. ;)

In 100 more days, I will be sitting the exam. Finals. But I am acting like my exam in 200 days (or more)! This semester is full of uncertainties. As I said in previous post, feels like lost in abyss. Huh, betul sangat la tuh. This new system really get my nerves. Lost! Memang self-directed learning laaa. No guidance, no tutorial, no clinics, no hospital. *complaint je banyak. Studynya idak.Duhhh*

A friend said take it as your holiday. Erk, I am really taking my sweet time at the moment. And feel guilty later on. :(

Skyped with Papa and he asked me about my exam format etc. And he asked, "so, you don't have this type of question later? This? And this? No?" And I said, "no, Papa, we have that last year. That's why last year was difficult too" 

His answer, "aaaa senang la macamtuh. Easy. You will pass."

And I was like eh-eh. Sengih kambing.

And mum being mum, with worried face, "don't forget to study. You have exam coming. Revise. Plan well. Etc etc etc"

And again I was like eh-eh. Yes, Mum.

So, being a perfect melancholic, a plan is a must. Follow ke idak tuh, belakang kira. Ehehs.

I have make a plan how to tackle each exam. (And I need a partner. Got one for my medical. I need few more)

Many advice not to go alone. Being a lone ranger, that's very challenging. Need to push myself. With the new system, I can't be too picky, need to find people with same timetable and I need to push myself. Really hard.

Jangan menyesal kemudian hari. (Ok. That's scary)

So, dear myself,

Get out from your duvet.
Fight the cold.
Start working.
Do it now.
See patients.
Talk and do exams on patients (After you recover. Take care of yourself first, dear)
Follow your timetable.
Stay focus.
Endure it.
Just a little bit more.
Take control of your life

All is well.

Love,
Me

P/s my new weekend ritual = Skype with Mami and Papa (I am usually just call them, rarely skype. Too troublesome to switch on laptop. But not anymore. New resolution. Ehehs)

+ Jogging (lama tak buat. Sobs. Naik lemak ni)

Looks like I have changed. Towards more feminist? Ehehs. Shopping? Really? Yup. Jeng jeng jeng.

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